Once again.., we went to farm yday wif those naughty little cute devil kidz.. So long nv been there le.. Back to the same old place, havin difference feeling. The feel wasn't there any longer & so sad that, the horse has passed away...! sobsob.. But nvm, we enjoyed once again. I love the gathering best.. although nt all the family attended. however, it's a really happy day lor.

And although all the expenses for my family yday were sponsor by me. but i really willing to spend this kind of expense.. cos i know that its really worth de. nt like... haiz.. dun mention it now! cos my mind is in the happy mode now. hehe. hope there's a gathering again every wkend, alternate wkend, or every mth. :)
Fate ended @ 9:23 AM
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Meeting my teammates in sch to do the multimedia project. Wake up late and reach late. After the meeting, suppose to meet suyin but cant reach her. Such a waste of time waiting for her. haha.. but nvm la. nt her fault also. its hp fault! haha. Suddenly received my best sister sms. Thinking of taking a trip to her hse push her to study & frm her hse, i watched the show 'huan huan ai' (exchange of love) in another word 'why why love'. Feeling some lines very suit me and also the problem is almost same for me... and there's a line i love best!

'The most that i don't need in my life is 'DREAM', the most things tat i nt interested is 'LOVE'. Because i dun1 myself to get disappointed.. AND Because if there is no dream, there will be no disappointment.'

Actually, i really afraid of dispointment. therefore, i dun dare to aim tat high anymore. and also i dun dare to love b'cos i afraid of loss.

OK! i think i dun talk abt the show anymore b'cos i think i hav really alot to mention today ba. B'cos wat happen in elaine hse really bring me back alot of memories. keep thinking if everything nt change, i will be as happy as wat it is ba.

In the past, every member of the family will went to my grandma hse for a gather. for chat, happy argument, play and fun. nw, nt even once in few months to grandpa hse. not much gathering anymore. In the past, beach, park, farm, shopping mall, etc is where we always went together. nw, avoid to go out together. b'cos wanna avoid another quarrel. In the past, there's little quarrelment surround or even none. nw, quarrel for finance, quarrel for other every small things. In the past, we love to go straight home rite after sch. nw, avoid to go home. In the past, we love wkends alot because dad will bring us out to somewhere for exploding. nw, avoid to go out in case of borrowing $ frm us again. In the past, there's so many things we love. nw, other den avoid, still avoid... hw we wish everything unchange. but now...!? everything changed! i really dun like this kind of life.

Juz now, having experience in elaine family, let me feel warm and 'xian mu'. hw i wish granny is still around. hw i wish my family is ever so happening. but everything really change.

Having of so many problem now! me & my sister is facing a big problem. and this problem cdnt be solve. Hw we wish to find a place to hide and cry.

We really duno y. really!!!!
Fate ended @ 9:09 PM
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Finally, i have made up my mind! Planned my schedule! I think, I think my time will be getting lesser le ba! I was so worry that i cant cope sooooo many things together. I scare i might loss my frds, loss the feeling, loss the interest and even mayb family. But hope the true wd proof me wrong! cos i now think tat, if... i gt lesser time to contact my frd, If they are really the true frd, even if we get less contact, we will nt missed and totally loss contact ba! den for family, they know de la! haha.. den as for fun, shd throw aside 1st le lor! no choice! ok la! since i hd made my decision le, hope everything will be smooth for me ba!
Fate ended @ 10:09 PM
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This 2days, meeting the same old and nagging people! This person got so many things to chat! so noisy!!! ;-p only the person know who i am refering ba! haha!!! But i hav been long nv feel so relax and happy le! This 2days, really made me lighten alot!

yday, go queue for donuts.. i cutted queue! but nt really la! cos tat person go queue 1st. hehe.. waited and waited.. Finally got our munchy donuts from the LONG QUEUE 'donut factory'! Bought it in bulk (2dozen! but 1dozen is for my cousins..)! Wondering if i could give some to my 'dear' they all and share with them. But too bad!! they gt no fortune to share it! haha!!! But after i bought home, it was finish 3quarter within few hours. It taste gd la! but quite normal frm outside bakery leh! & some more, its very swt lor!!! As for my opinion, i dun think its worth to queue so long jus to buy the donuts frm the donut factory lor! haha! Sry! shd nt destroy the brand! ;-p

Today is really a relax and happy day for us! Feel so relax and peaceful!! We went for serveral places!

Travel & travel! from my hse, to woodland. den to tampiness the central, den to pasir ris, den suppose to go beach but take wrong bus. end up at a park. but still gt "sea" & "sand" la! and the most enjoy part is gt swing! for us to play! long time nv play swing le! haha!!! so still ok la! juz tat we missed our sunset! but nvm, nxt time den go! hehe... den after the park, we go white sand. den back to tampiness again, den woodland & finally go hm! haha! Quite alot of places lor! ;-p

All the way, we Chat & chat! Shop & shop! argue & argue! play & play! Totally forget abt the time. No worries, only have fun. :) Almost go crazy! haha! but time are too short! But lucky time are short. If nt, we will spent like mad! cos we buy & buy! Haiz!

Overall, I really love my days to be so relax and peaceful like today! Hope every weekend can be like tat. REALLY!!! Thanks Qing Qing for the noisy but fun days wor! hee... NITE!!!
Fate ended @ 11:53 PM
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My life goes up & dwn everyday. Today, I feel so relax. To be honest, i know why i feel so stress. & i cant avoid from it. hwever, i also cant post here. cos i know the circumstance if i post it! how??!! Qing! i still gt alot to tell u leh! hehe..
Fate ended @ 12:56 PM
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Days are getting lesser and lesser for me...! I feel of collapse any moment..! Things surround are driving me crazy anytime! my life is getting miserable every minutes! please! i dun wanna survive in such a world! Please! let me off!!! I dun wanna tie up by so many things! Wat i nd is juz a peaceful life! tat's it! y cant i??? Y?
Fate ended @ 5:37 PM
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Yesterday was on MC. Thinking of resting at home and relax.. but end up doing some crazy things...! cos i went back to sch... to do some project and i gt the chance to met those cute ex-classmates of TA27! haha... miss them.. hope tat we gt enough time to chat but too bad...! they are in rush to tutorial! haiz! sobsob... after that, i even went to orchard cos elaine wanna buy present! and having dinner at sakae sushi.. after that went to somewhere that i hav nt gone for a long period! at least 3 or 4 yrs! really bring back alot of memory!!! The happy moment and the best part of being together... wat a swt memories to recall! but too bad! days is gone and nv b back again but always in my mind!!! :)
Fate ended @ 9:16 AM
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