2months ago, went out wif elaine family, her dad, her uncle, her aunt, her cousin & her granny.

2days ago, i attend elaine granny wake.

Just cant imagine ba?! Things surround us are so unexpected! Anything will happen anytime & anywhere. we cant predict wat will happen 2moro but we can treasure wat we hav now.

In my mind, alot of things appear.. Appearing some nonsense item! Asking myself whether i hav made a rite choice. Wondering whether every friends in my life is a true frd to me. Why is it tat they will disappear when i need them.

I wonder.. Wonder how my family will like after i go back to sch. No more salary! will they still asking $ frm me? will the life still be the same as now?

I just cant imagine how my life will be. Please..! Pardon me! Recuse me! Help me!

I feel so worthless in the world! Wat on earth is this? So Miserable! So confuse! So complicated! So Irresponsible! So Tired! So sad!

Where's the happiness? Where's the laughter? where's my smile? Ya! there's smile, a fake smile that doesn't came out frm my heart!

Wat happen la? Why? Can anyone tell me? i dun1 this type of life. I hope i am nt been force to do something stupid!
Fate ended @ 12:28 PM
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It's Mid-autumn! Happy mooncake fest! hehe.. Quite busy during the wkend. Finally find times to blog! ;p Busy, Busy, Busy! Busy and tired but happy! Since fri to now! go out, meet frd, go ah na hse, go pray, go shawn hse, etc. Tired but busy! haha..
Fate ended @ 5:50 PM
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1st time go JB for work! actually nt really work lor! shop more den work. Haha.. Shop and shop and shop.. But.. nv buy much things back.. regret! regret tat nv bought more mooncake back!!
Tired! Tired! Tired! Suddenly feel so tired! long time nv shop le! haha! Wanna get myself a day to shop and shop and shop! Qing!! let's go crazy shopping 1s again.. okok? Hee.. sch reopen soon! Y? Y? Y? Y qing wanna change class? ur class really gd lor! i really like ur class! but haiz! no fate to b in the same class for the last sems! so sad! stupid system la! nvm, we still got IS! at least same class for once a wk! better den nothing ba! ;p
Fate ended @ 8:48 PM
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Blog again!!!

There's still no time slot last nite! So sad! So, end up in ACC0523! No choice lor! It's the fate frm the heaven. Juz take it ba!

Last sems le! Juz bear with it! and strike for it le lor! Wat can i do? Juz to accept only. But lucky tat i hav oxygen! tat give me the breathing all the time. Haha.. Oxygen! dun ever leave me alone in the long time table class! i will cry!

the next headache things coming up will be the selection of IS... Coming soon.. Next Mon! Yeah! It's Next Monday!

2moro gg JB.. BUT.. It's for Work! So many, so many things! Haiz! Y my life is so busy? I juz need a break! Can I? I juz wan a relax! with dear? with someone i can lie on! Someone who i can feel relax!

Saturday! Saturday gg ah na hse! haha! gg to mess up her hse! yeah!
Fate ended @ 10:58 AM
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Got too many things to blog on for today.. Things happened b4 i wakey, after wakey..., Just few hrs ago..., and NOW! SO, it gonna b a long entries!



Guess wat i dream.. I dream of the same guy again. Juz duno y. I noe tat there will nt b anything between 2 of us. BUT always dream of him. (So sad!! Y nt a handsome guy? ;p) Always feel so swt & romance wif him in the dream. he always treat me well. and so swt against me. BUT it's juz a dream. if its true, i duno whether it's gd or bad.

few hrs ago, register for time table! but nv get into the class i wan.. (SAD!!!) duno wat i am doing also. Just cant access! (ANGRY!) nvm. I will try it at nite.. cos I take hrs leave home.. prepared to chiong for the class. haha.

Thurs, i am gg JB! but nt for fun. It's for work. So, it gonna be a busy week for me! Sianz!!!
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Yday, went to a supermarket!!! Panning to hav a bbq gathering.. Looking at some foods at the foods and fruits category.. AND.. These fruits caught our eyes!!! Guess wat fruit?! It's Watermelon!!! The type and price of the watermelon!

NOW!!! Guess... How much is a 'SQUARE' watermelon?

YES!!! IT'S 'SQUARE'!!!

A 'SQARED' watermelon cost: S$68!!!

Ex rite? this isn't the amaze part yet.. the most amaze things is..

The Clause!!! which mentioned..

The watermelon was display at the category of fruit but its was nt for consume. So, why? Y display in the category of fruit? Really dun understand lor!

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Monday, I'm gg to JB for assisgnment!!!

Monday!!! My appointment for class time table in the morning!

Now, nd to calculate opportunity cost! Choice is to go for overseas assisgnment or to select for time tabling.

The opportunity cost for assisgnment is i'll b miserable for the whole sems. Opportunity cost for time tabling is tat, i may nt hav 2nd chance for overseas assisgnment.

Well, Although my mind is clear tat time tabling is v important but..., i dun wanna to miss the opportunity. Y? Y? Y? Y must i choose? Haiz! Is there any alternative?

Out of the sudden, I realised..

Choice is ours, opportunity also belongs to us! Grab it or give up. Make a wise choice & dun ever made ourself regret. cos once regret, nv a 2nd chance will always b given. treasure the choice u made. cherish the circumstance for the choice. Every challenge is a lesson for us to realise and grow. SO, I wanna make my BEST choice!!!
Fate ended @ 11:37 PM
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Haha! guess wat? I am eating snake...!!! Lazy to work! cos its FRIDAY! (TGIF!!!)

Result is out! AND.. i get B+.. Result isn't as gd as wat i expected. BUT nvm la! satisfied wif my result.

Days passed a day by a day.. I become more worry for it! i duno y also. Worry for sch? work? Money? I hope my worry is an extra item..

Days passed.. Brand new lifestyle coming rite on the way to my life. Life w/o working, life w/o colleague. BUT Life include studying and friends. Wonder whether my studying life will be as great as b4. & I really hope so.

During the year, alot of changes in my life. Some idiots dash into my life, mess up my behavior, change my leisure style, and even making me fall in love with the lifestyle. BUT.. those idiots and unbelievable lifestyle disappear recently. Well..! I cd say is tat, i miss those idiots and the lifestyle. HAHA! BUT.. I dun think it wd ever happen again. So, will let it to be my best memory with them ba. & start my brand new lifestyle.

Cant wait to change myself into a new caifen in a new environment, new classmates, new frd, new dear, everything new! CAIFEN will start afresh again! Dun interrupt and mess up her life again! ok? hehe..
Fate ended @ 10:29 AM
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Fate ended @ 3:33 PM
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I find myself been long nv blog, so here i am to update! BUT.. i duno where to start or wat to say.

Frd? Family? Work? School? Study? Leisure? Health?
Well.. nthin much to update lor!!! Cos i am sick & tired of my life le! dun think i can manage it.
As wat my nick mentioned: My colours in my world starts to fade off and i dun1 it to happen but duno how and duno y it happen.

Life start to be no meaningful. Dun dare to think. Dun dare to look back for the memories. Dun dare to look forward for a dream. AND... worst things is DUN DARE TO STAND ON THE SPOT!

Dun dare to look back cos memories is too gd to hav. Dun dare to compare it! its like living frm heaven and been punish to hell.

Dun dare to dream cos i dun dare to hope. Dun dare to face another crisi. when there's no hope for it, there will be no disappointment! isn't it?

Dun dare to stand on the spot cos i dun1 to continue this kind of miserable life. I may look strong but in fact, there's alot of hidden story behind which made me crazy, mad, miserable, sad, disappointted and even collapse!!!

What i want now is a peaceful life! A no worrries life! A happy go lucky girl standing rite infront of u!
Fate ended @ 1:36 PM
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