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Last POST!

2008-12-31T09:21:00.002+08:00

Thanks for everything in the past!

Everything will be PASSED & Past!
Happy Memories will always be kept...
lifelesscaifen.blogspot will always be available w/o any update..

And..

This would be my last Post!!!

New year coming...

SO...!

Caifen would be having New resolution!!!
with new BLOG!!!

Click => Caifen Reborn!!!!
(to Re-link!!!)

Posting before last POST!!!

2008-12-30T11:22:00.008+08:00

It's a random posting before i ends my lifelesscaifen..

Photos of Last few day in 2008! (29 Dec 2008)
Having fun and some very amazing characters of someone!!!
Really no words to describe!!! Anyway, New year coming! So.. HAPPY New Year!

It's X'MAS!!!

2008-12-24T10:13:00.009+08:00

Oops! It's X'mas EVE!!!

Started with FOODs!!!
Bought by patrick at tiong baru:

Shui guo!!!
You tiao!!!
Butterfly!!!

Next..

Our feast!!!

Turkey..
Wine..
X'mas Log cake, etc...

& My days is filled with FOODS!!!

2008 X'mas!!! went JBP with my family!

There's the picture which talks..

Wasn't a working day!

2008-12-22T16:05:00.002+08:00

I know i had STOP blogging for long~

So just alittle update la!

Anyway, Time flies.. & it's Coming to the end of the year!

X'mas coming.. New year coming!

And.. this week, i left with 2 1/2 working days! Yipee!

& it's nt a working day today! Cos Office is with less than half staff! abt 10+ pax only!!! wahahahahaha...

Some picture update!!!

Yesterday, Leonard wedding..

And also.. Last month!
Our pinky Farewell for tianping!

Last!!

M3rRy X'MaS!!!

19 Oct 08 SENTOSA!

2008-11-13T15:42:00.018+08:00

After so Long.. NOW den update! Haha! Ok! Updating of 19 Oct 2008 photos!!! Where we (My family!!!) went to SENTOSA together!!! Travel via CABLE CAR! to all attraction in SENTOSA!!!

LOVE BEST = DOLPHIN!!!!
And some photos for more update! :)

18 Oct!!!

2008-10-26T00:06:00.013+08:00

Reach Home super 'EARLY' in the Saturday morning.. (3am+++ to 4am in the early morning!)

Wake up abt 8am! for another outing with those little 'Prince' & 'Princess'..

Went Clarke Quay for Breakfast and the speedy boat ride as our 1st destination..

& later on, proceed to Flyers...

& from there, we take the flyers shuttle to the MRT...

& proceed to SENTOSA!!!

Went to Melion..

4D Magix..

Skyride..

Underwater World..

& this had already spend us full days of energy!!! TIRED!!! Haha..

16 to 17 October event!!!

2008-10-23T13:45:00.022+08:00

Have been Outing since Thursday..

Thursday (2days before bday!)..
Having a date out with Sista Ian & Qing..
Long time nv meet her! Miss her so much..
She's like a lian driver lor! tailgating with sista so closely.. Haha..
Went pasir ris to hav a romance dinner with them..
Walking along the beach.. with Cold weather.. and BAT flying above head after dinner..
Feeling so nice and beautiful..

Thanks Sista's for the accompany on thurs!

Following day.. Friday..

Mei went for PT in morning.. Waiting so nervous at home.. Hoping she would call me immediately for a good news..

Waited and waited.. No call..

& Expected.. She FAILED! Sob!!!

But nvm.. Jie (ME!) Bought her to Escape (which had planned long ago! No matter pass or fail, she can either celebrate or for relaxing!)

So we went escape together with my sibling and wen...

Been Q & Q! So tire of Q!

Riding with Priate Ship!!!

Er.. BUT No splash for me!!! (I dun wanna get WET! Hee!)

Daytona....!

360 Degree!!! (Turing Ourself Opposite!!! Like wanted to commit Sucide! BUT it's Exciting & FUN!!!)

Trying up all the exciting game..
& Also other nt exciting game la..

After Escape, It's Wild Wild Wet!!! (BUT we nt WET!!! haha.. Just go in to ride bicycle only!)
Only this wdn't get WET!!!

After whole day gaming, We went Flyers to meet grandpa they all for a flyers ride..

& I meet Sista AGAIN!!! But this time is with Oxy..

We went to Night Safari for the Halloweeeeeee Night..

Its FUN also!!! Ghost everywhere! Hoping up and down the train!

Scary!

& also disgusting!

But afterall, no more fright anymore!!!

After so much, we went for supper!!! & so, my birthday had been cross over with all the excitment.. & next again Photo taking session!!!

My 1st 2 photos taken with my NEW HP!!! Yeah! (So sista... Shd be pleasure hor!!! ;p)

Yeah!!! Oxygen rockz!!!

14 Oct 08 Celebration

2008-10-14T21:03:00.002+08:00

Birthday cum Farewell Buffet!

Picture of Jo last day in TMIS & the birthday gal (ME!)

October Birthday girls.. (Sharon & ME!)
& Farewell girls.. (Jo and Janice)

26 September 2008

2008-10-03T15:19:00.004+08:00

Another Very Quick Update for 26 September 2008 with Wen..
To Snow city and Science Centre

20 Sep 08

2008-10-03T14:24:00.007+08:00

On the 20 Sep..
We went to Snow City and Science Centre..
With My Mummy.. Sibling.. Qin and Teck..

19 Sep 08

2008-10-03T13:59:00.008+08:00

Randomly Updates of photos taken on 19 Sep 08
At the flyers with my FAMILY!!!

17 Sep 08

2008-10-03T13:42:00.007+08:00

A very Quick Update for 17 September 2008
at Singapore Flyers with cousins.. (Qin, Min & Yun)

Enjoying it BECAUSE Whole Cabinet belongs to US!!! haha..

Medical REPORT!

2008-08-29T08:55:00.002+08:00

Hmm..

Yesterday raining!!! So coldzy! Lucky got patrick 'ai xin' green bean congree for us...
WARM and delicious! YUMMY!!!

Yesterday, went to clinic to get my report!!!
Having extremely high cholesterol and LOW white cell counts..
Daddy is worry for my cholesterol while mummy worry for me getting leukarmia.
Ya! There's a BIG history hidden with this..
BUT, wat to do?

Daddy, mummy!
Dun worry for me PLEASE!
U all already taken a very good care on me!
U all are the BEST Parents' i met!
Thanks! DUN WORRY!
I gg to b fine! REALLY!!!

JB Trip!!!

2008-08-16T23:33:00.019+08:00

Today having JP trip!!!

JB trip schedule was shown as:

7.45am
Assemble @ TMIS - SSC

8.00am
Depart SSC for Tuas checkpoint

10.00am
Meet & be greeted by friendly local tourtist guide
Proceed to our first destination - Dim Sum's Restaurant for Breakfast

11.00am
Nature Fruit Paradise, this fruit farm covers more than 1000 hectare of land. You can experience the farm by admiring the nature landscape. you will be greet by the farm 'tropical guide. she will show you around the land of nature. be prepare for a heart stormy ride with a 4X4 wheel drive around the farm and it's the first time in Malaysia that requires a 4X4 wheel vehicle in, you will visit the exclusive Arowana Fish Farm & organic vegetable field.
on top of that, there will be fruit fiesta lunch with Durian, ji gong temple

1.00pm
Lunch

2.30-4.30pm
Let's proceed to Jaya Jusco Shopping Centre for some shopping SPREE. For those who are not interested in shopping, you may choose:- Optional program: SPAMassage & feet reflexology

4.30-6pm
Hop into Lido Fishing farm for fishing with a speedy boat ride. this farm located strategically in straits of tebrau; it is in the middle of singapore and malaysia with the best view of two countries.

6.30pm
our sumpuous and mouth watering BBQ seafood dinner awaits you.

8.00pm
Lastly after dinner, let's proceed back to TMIS @ SSC

AND outcome to be:

7.45am
STILL WAITING for BUS

8.30am
BUS Came..

9.30am
Reached Woodland

10.00am
Breakfast with each person 1 piece of difference type of Dim sum
1 person = 1 siew mai, 1 prawns dumpling, 1 buns, everything only 1..
Not many durian! & I dun see much fruits! Yes there's many kind but not 1000...
Den no more kelong!!! Because raining heavy and stormy! so cannot!!!
Den shopping got nothing to buy also!!!

So angry! cos cant get the chance to ride boat to 'kelong' for fishing!!
Cos raining!!! stomy!!! so.. haiz!

Anyway, i enjoy the trip..

Experiencing the kampong lifestyle..
REALLY kampong type lor... rite inside the forest!!!
den also the 'kelong'!

Wow! Really an amazing trip!!!

Really Enjoy the trip so much.. Esp the farm with the 'MONSTER' Truck!
Having so fun.. Plucking the rambutans.. until my hand pain!!!
Shop like mad but bought nothing.. just some boxes of mooncake + foods back..

Spend less than 150riggit!!!
Feel like spending more lei!

who wanna go in again? choi me also lei!!! hee...

Coming out to have some photos taken..

Urgent Leave!

2008-08-12T19:26:00.002+08:00

Mummy is sick!
Food posioning!

Taking urgent leave..
Stay at home!
WORKING!!!
as PART TIME NURSE + PART TIME Tutor = FULL TIME MAID!

Taking care of mummy!
Teaching my sister on her account!
Cleaning of house, Washing of clothes & utensils, Cooking, etc!

BUSY!!! BUSIER than working!

One more things! PRAWN DIED!!!
Our PET PRAWN DIED!!!
Grow till so big le (same size as my handphone when flip open!) but passed away! SOB!!!
RIP ba!

ECP!

2008-08-04T12:59:00.003+08:00

Went YOGA on saturday morning..
Listen to the free concert at ECP..
Blowing with the free breezes..
Viewing a beautiful scenes with aeroplane flying above my head!
Cycling from ECP to Changi!

HAD A GREAT FALL OFF FROM BICYCLE!

Fresh on my toes been cut off!!!
Skins been peel off!

Was in a great pain!
Thanks to the passesby Angmo for an helping hand.
Helping me & accompany me too clean up my wound!

Now.. I'm more ugly and plus additional Ugly!

My head to toe!

My face.. (Full of pimple & Ance!)
My tummy.. (Blowing like a balloon!)
My hand.. (Full of marks with skins peel off & many blue black!)
My Leg.. (Missing Fresh, small & BIG blue black & strecths with skins been peel off!)

After cleaning up my wounds, its much more better! Not so disgusting..

My Biggest blue black i had now! (Nt even my knee gt it.. its appear all over my body! serveral blue black!) :(

The skins peel off on my hand! (And of cos nt only hand! Its just part of it!)

Toes fresh been cut off (Sticking back my fresh!) - Still nt disgusting! Cos fresh been stick back temporary.

Its quite deep inside and really disgusting so must went to doctor for cleaning!
& guess what? Its spend me $148/= for it!

Now, i only can stay at home and go no else where.
Sitting right infornt of computer waiting for FATs to grow!
& in future, if i came across an ugly fat woman who looks like me, dun wonder anymore!
It's ME!

BETTER DAY!

2008-07-31T18:58:00.002+08:00

Feeling much more better!
Not because of the condition that is better
BUT
I know that's someone up there always care for me so much!
(Except for some tat dun understand!!!!!)

Thanks to u all!
U guys really fill up my day with a SMILE!
Esp my family, Qing's!, Yin...
Really thanks for concern! :)

I nv want this to happen also!

2008-07-30T11:58:00.003+08:00

Thinking back, I think I really had make a wrong choice after all!

I lost SO MUCH things!
I lost my SMILE!
I lost my Healthy Face!!!
I lost my BEAUTY!
I lost my Friends!
I lost almost everything!

So is this WORTH?

One Day OFF!

2008-07-26T14:03:00.006+08:00

Having a day off yesterday.

Wakey very early den usual when i go work..
went to consult skin doctor of my face! (which i can't accept!)
My face is like so worst & nv had b4!
Whole face is full of acne & pimples!
Itchy & burned!

Looking into mirror of myself, wondering whether who is the person.
The person in the mirror scare me off!
& let me cried in a fright!

I just can't imagine how worst it will be till the day i really can't accept & imagine of!

I'm not overact & it's really true!

Dun believe? Scroll sown & take a look of the picture i taken!

But b4 that, an advise:
The picture below may make u feel unwell!!!

Please dun view the picture below as it's really disgusting!
As me myself cant accept!!!

But if u insist to view it,
Here's the picture of my face!

TAKE a DEEP Breath b4 viewing!

Be Prepared!!!

Count down from 3!

3

2

1

Believe le ba?
Very terrible, horrible & disgusting rite?

This is the most horrible nightmare i nv ever met!
& even worst is tat, this nightmare wouldn't go off so soon!!
& i had to bear all the pain, all the itchy, all kind of stress i need to face!

That's y i MUST take a day leave to see doctor!
After seeing doctor, i dun feel better! But den wat can i do already? FACIAL?
Facial would help me but it's worsten my condition! I tried!
So, I got no more solution!!!

Living in a nightmare is really a tough things in my life.
Honestly, i dun dare to go out! I dun dare to see anyone!
Cos i scare i will see someone i know & they start to ask me: WAT HAPPEN TO UR FACE?
Me myself dun even know the ans, hw to ans u all?
& worst is tat, i already scare of seeing myself & try to 4get tat my condition is worsten.
BUT when i go out, i sure will met friends on the road.. & they will sure ask me!
& it's remind me again & again! (U know, my heart hurt deeply!)

All i nd now is to have a simple lifestyle! BACK to my normal!
I know there's NEVER 100% perfect in this world.
But can i grant at least 80% to 90% of perfection in my life?
I want back my figure! My beauty! My happiness!
It's just a very simple task but y?
Y must u take all these away from me and give me such a horrible nightmare?
I really dun dare to face myself! DUN DARE!!

Update

2008-07-17T23:46:00.002+08:00

Just to update..

Been so busy recently.. Having all kinds of events, workshop and baobei birthday..
baobei so cute and adorable.
Brings laughter and smile.. Really so cute and love her so much..

She's the one who see her once in a while (mayb once a year or only twice a year)
She and her sister was the one who always called me..
They are the one who i dote most also.. (among the kids!)
Love them so much..
But nt much photos taken la..
AND ALSO..
Been told nt to display their photos.. so.. sorry.. no photo.. :)

I'm often been asked.. How am I recently..? My reply would rather be.. I'm fine..
BUT.. Honestly.. I just dun feel HAPPY.
Y? Cos i dun feel happy at all lor.

I just dun like the one i am right now...
The face with lots of pimples i have now..
The figure i'm having with lots of fats..
The lifestyle of no social life..
The mentally of having been torture..
I just dun love who i am now!
I HATE IT! I really hate it so much..

I just dun like it!
WAT the....... Haiz..

3 months limitation!

2008-07-01T22:41:00.002+08:00

3 Months OVER! My limitation is there!!!

Wat i had gain in this 3 months..
I get PhD!

GASTRIC Pain
EMOTIONAL
TEMPER

PIMPLEs
Harshly
Dark Eye rings!

Other than that?
NOTHING!!!

Wat the...!

Haiz..

Under my realisation, i REALISED my life changed!

In the Past, Caifen = princess of LEE's

Past, Choclate Everyday as snack
Now, Sour Plum as my snack

Past, Happy
Now, SAD!

Sometimes, somehow, this message came across:
No matter u RUN or u WALK,
U will be able to get the destination.
The different between RUN and WALK is the timing that u reached..
BUT there's always something u able to gain.
RUN: U able to reach early.
WALK: U able to discover the scenary before u reach the destination.

So wat's ur choice?

WAT THE!!!!

2008-06-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

For wat he asked for my opinion? as he had already decide...!
Ya.. He thought of me! BUT nv thought tat i'll be unhappy!
Ya.. He did it for my good! BUT nv realised tat i feel PAIN!
Ya.. He wants lesser quarrel! BUT nv know tat i'll do stupid things!
Ya! Everything for my GOOD! BUT NONE of it give me a SMILE!
I believe.. He wouldn't nv ever SEE me SMILE AGAIN for sure!
AND.. THIS IS FOR MY GOOD!!!

Misunderstanding!!!

2008-06-15T15:17:00.001+08:00

烦！好烦！好烦喔！

Wat's the situation now? My fault la?!
Grow so old still wanna throw temper at me?!

I know he was sad.. He thinks tat he wasn't in the position he suppose to be.
Ya! I make the decision instead of him.
BUT.. Tht's for the good..!

I know he feel difficulties & i dun1 him to be also.
I wanna reduce his burden.. But wat can i do if he dun listen to me?

PLEASE!! WAT'S THE PROBLEM NOW?
MY FAULT?
I feel sad too!!! I also human! I gt feel also!
U sad?! I also SAD!
I knows he did it for my good!
I did it for his good also.. please!
I just dun care Wat ever decision he make le! Up to him as he likes ba!
I DUN CARE! & DUN WANNA CARE!

GRADUATION 2008!

2008-05-29T17:43:00.022+08:00

FINALLY! I'M GRADUATE!

Graduate from NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC Dipolma in Accountancy!

Attended Graduation ceremony 2008!!!

Wakey early to office! (HALF day off only!) :(
Rush home to get myself prepare..
Meet Oxy together to go sch!
Meet Jane and Ian in Sch!

Awaiting in convention Hall..
TALK & TALK! Gossip and Gossip with Steve (We really noisy in that few rows! Jane said!!)
1st time gt so many things to talk to him! Can't imagine.. (Normally in class, we seldom talk! ;p)

NEXT.. FUN photos session!

(OXY)

(Metthew Pon)

(Steve)

(Yong An)

(William Lim)

(Ming Long)

(Simon Tan)

(Dessy)

(Jeremy)

(Anna Yap)

And that's not all..

After leaving school, Ian come pick us up to dinner..

Den.. to Little Gui Lin..
And..
To Limbang Park..

And..
also my creation

命中注定!

2008-05-25T20:50:00.002+08:00

Everything is FATE!

My life is a FATE!
To live in singapore is a FATE!
Been my parents child is a FATE!
To survive is a FATE!
Knowing u is a FATE!
Lossing U is another FATE!

FATE bring us together.. &..
FORCE us to leave each other!

FATE is unpredictible but amazing!
FATE is uncontrollable but cherishable.

Many things happen in a sudden..
We really wdn't noe wat will happen the nxt min..
Mayb i will dissolve in this world?
Mayb i may loss u!? (BUT i dun wish to!)
Please dun disappear in a sudden!
Promise ME dun ever leave me! PLEASE!!!
Although everything is 命中注定! BUT Please dun leave me!
I LOVE U!

Gathering!!!

2008-05-18T13:32:00.008+08:00

It's another BUSY Day!

EATEN 6 Meals & Bath 4 Times!

WAKEY early to have my breakfast... (1st MEAL)
& went to sch to collect Grad Attire!!!
(STUPID! Y must we collect den put at home & bring it back to sch on grad day?!)
WASTE OF TIME!

Meet frd outside sch!
HAD another meal! (2nd MEAL)

Go CC to collect our schedule..

Go home to bath... (Too Sweaty! - 1st Bath)
WENT OUT again to get something!
Go home to get another BATH.. (SMELLY! - 2nd Bath)
While waiting for the DA XIAO JIE (YIN!)
EAT My daddy Fried Teow Tiew! (3rd MEAL!)

This YIN, Forever de lei!
LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After meeting yin, WENT FAR EAST to meet mylene...
SHOP & SHOP!
HUNGRY again!
Went for pepper lunch at TAKA! (4th MEAL!)

Shop again... WENT Bugis! SHOP!
HAD our GIANT earthquake at Swenden @ Bugis! (5th MEAL!)
Went Suntec... Went Marina Sq.. Went to the S'pore Flyers!
(SWEAT all the way with Sticky feel!)
Cant stand the feel and got home!

Stupid weiwen replied so late after my bath and supper! (MY 3rd bath and 6th MEAL!)
He came and fetch me over to mylene hse!
Went BPP MCdonal to had a chat plus small meal! (Dun really EAT!)
Chat and Chat till midnight 3+ or 4+..
BATH again! - 4th BATH!!!! (SIANZ!!!! So many bath in a day + so many meal!)

TIRED~!

Upcoming photos taken with mylene!

Confuse!

2008-05-13T12:13:00.003+08:00

I duno wat I want at the moment.
I duno wat decision shd i made.
I duno whether I wd regret on the decision made!
I duno! I Duno! I REALLY DUNO!

Making decision is tough! Esp sth tat may affect others!
My decision make will affect alot of ppl! (Too Many!)
BUT... Will I happy to stay on?

Well! Just celebrate Mummy's Day with a hugh exp..
Coming up is Yana Wedding...
Next, will be Graduation Ceremony!
All kind of occasion!!!

All occasion will spend me really alot!
BUT its make me willing to spend!
Its BRING me a SMILE on my face! (HAPPY!) :)

Fats Week..

2008-04-28T11:34:00.006+08:00

FATS ATTACK!!!

From thursday onwards, FATs started attack me!!!

Thursday

Buffet lunch with manager at legend hotel at fort canning!

Having all my sweet stuffs...

Friday

NATAS AGM GALAs NITE!

Dinner at MM Hotel!

Lots of delicious food!

Cold dish with cute dance..

Soup, Roasted chucken, Sea Bass, Fried Prawn..

Scallops, Ee Fu noodles, Yam Paste..

& Wine! Red + White!!!

Drink too much.. (End up, taking cab hm!)

Saturday

Staying at hm..

watching my episode!

Teaching my sister ACC!

RELAX!!!! :)

Sunday

Meet the gals!

Having lunch at Noodles rest.

Fun flow of ice-cream! (My fav!)

Having BK for dinner!

Go uncle house... (Durian supper!)

Go hm.. (Fish Crackers Feast!)

Ok! Update some photos for NATAS AGM!

Buffet!

2008-04-24T20:45:00.001+08:00

Having buffet during lunch hour!

Guess wat!
The topic of the day is damn exciting!
The benefit of the staff!

Yeah! I totally agreed with it!
Yeah! I gt to see how!
Limitation: End of May!

Tht's the very limit le, I dun1 this type of life!
LOW PAY!
BAD BENEFIT!!!

Just don't want to waste my beautiful moment here!
YEAH! I'm sick and tired of it le!
Tht's it! MAN!
I'm still young! i dun1 to be so stress!

Happy chating with joyce and tianping today..
Alicia and lynn.. Wise decision made! REALLY!
Although i'm here nt long, but i know the policy le!

Wishes

2008-04-22T13:06:00.001+08:00

How i wishes that i wd nt regret in the decision made!

Can anyone give me an advice?

Feel so confuse!
Scare!
Please advice!
Please HELP!

No title!

2008-04-19T15:54:00.003+08:00

Days had pass as fast as wat i wonder!

Still figuring whether i had made a gd decision!

Making decision is tough!
Especially when u grow up!
Every decision make may affect others!

My life changed.. ever since.. Grad?
I duno either..

Headache! Lazy!

Busy! Busy! Busy!

2008-04-08T17:58:00.003+08:00

Have been so busy for the last week..

New job, new environment..
How's the job?
Fine..
BUT..
always on OT! (HATE!)

Sweep tombing for the past 2 weekends..
Sun burn!
Tired!

Visit Aunt.. (doctor said 2months)
Went clubbing with my cousins on sun!
Reach hm on Mon (EARLY MORNING!)
Wake up after sleeping for 2hrs!
TO WORK!
TIRED!
serve me right!

For now, wondering...
whether i had made a right decision..
Have to wait!!!
Wait and see..

Limit period: 4months! Maybe even shorter!

Life is FRAGILE!

2008-04-04T22:07:00.006+08:00

Life is so FRAGILE!

as Fragile as a Glass!

as Weak as a Infant!

It's unpredictible!

Cherish every moment, everyone & everything!

They may gone any moment and anywhere.

They wouldn't always be your side!

Anybody may comes and go.

Its a fate to bring them into your life.

No matter a passerby, for a min or for life.

Stupid!!!!

2008-03-31T13:31:00.002+08:00

Wow! I wasted my time! Cos of a stupid idiot!!!

Tht idiot make the whole Singapore road JAM!!!
JAM, JAM, JAM!
JAM from 9am to 12pm to reach my grandma cemetery!

Frm gradma cemetery, JAM, JAM, JAM to Aunt cemetery!
Decide to drop off & walk!
WALK & WALK & WALK..
What a good excercise!
Lucky good weather.. IF NOT..., ROASTED Beef le!
BUT still, I get BURN!
PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today, Last Day! Just nice, Jeremy come back.. Have a chat with him. Haha.. Time passed~!
Tomorrow, New Job! New environment, New work, New style, New life.
Hope everything will be GOOD! :)

Posting!

2008-03-22T18:12:00.006+08:00

Yeah! There's alot of things to update!

Audit work life is ending soon and i will be in accounting position!
Working in a new enivronment with new experience and new skills. Haha!

Pass few days.. Really enjoyable..

Colleagues treat..
Clients treat to a Hong Kong Rest..

During work, Clients cook Red Bean Soup for US!
YEAH! Yummy!

Saturday, went back office to work..!
Thida bring me some curry!
Hmm.. My life is like...

Full of Food!
EAT and EAT!
FATTY!

Food bought back from taiwan by my cousinssssssss..

Pineapple tart..
Black Peanut!
President Cookies!
Peanut biscuit!
And.. Interesting things came across!
AD in MTV channel!

Haha..

That day friday, went to meet shuyu.. Angie.. Genie.. Tony.. Joey..
Having nice chat with them..
BUT..
Time was so less to us!
Intend to meet out again!!!
To have a nice chat again..

Left them at around 11++
Share cab with Genie and Tony..
Fetch Genie BF, Drop Tony to his house follow by me at VIVO!

Meet elaine they all and my cousin for a movie!
I'm late! BUT dun care so much!
Cos i love the meeting and chatting session with Shu they all. :)

Reach VIVO, giving me a kind of face!
Just like i owe them money or wat de lei!
Esp tat stupid idiot!!!
I hate that!
WATCH stupid movie! BORED!
Went for supper at 3am for prata..
Another Boring things!

Dun care so much le!

Yesterday spend and spend!
Buy clothing!
Blouse.. Shirt and skirt!
TOTAL added up to become....!!!!!

$263!!! just for the clothing along!

AND..
I just cant imagine tat i will be wearing the following!!!
FORMAL!!!

SURPRISE! I'm gg to wear all these! My god! haiz!
Other than these, i still spending alot lor!

SPEND and SPEND!

Havnt get pay, already started to spend so much!

I'm gonna faint!

Holidays

2008-03-13T20:47:00.002+08:00

YEAH!
It's HOLIDAY!

Holidays planning!

Week 1:

1) Re-new Passport!
Planning to go overseas..
BUT..
Planning gone!
Y?
Because..
STUPID reason! (Dun intend to mention)

2) OUTING! meet up with friends..

3) BUSY! haha! too many things to do in that week..

Week 2:
Working! I started working in chan-soh again!
Helping up for them for a month only!

April! start work in the new company le!
I hope, I hope!
I wish, I wish..!

HAPPY! :)

Happy Posting!

2008-02-23T20:28:00.008+08:00

Finally! I update my blog after my SO0ooo busy life!

HaPpY!!! :)
YeAh!!!

My Busy life:
1) Projects!
2) CNY!
3) STUDY!
4) Exam!

AND NOW?
Everythings END!!!

STRESS so much during the period!
And now its released!

I'm now free like a bird! :)

Picture taken during the BUSY period!

Before CNY, went to fish farm!!!

And also, i cleaned my fish tank!! Decorated!!! Before CNY, all these tibits left only a little! Hee...

CNY!!!! In my favourite dressing!

Crazy FUN at the playground!
(Can't believed that i'm more crazy with guys!)
(Having so much fun at the playground with those cousins!)

CNY isn't really FUN!
Cos.. of the coming Exam..

This is how i studied for my EXAM!

write & write & write!!! Write Notes! Write to memories!
ZOOM IN!!!
NOTES again & again! Study double hard, triple hard & even harder!

Notes in paper!
Notes on the whiteboard.
Every morning open eyes saw the board! Memories the format!

But yet, paper is tough, MISTAKE all over the paper!
NOW! HOPE & WISHES!
Hope and wish that i'm able to pass & grad!

After so many, Yesterday is the LAST PAPER!

HAPPY!
Went for movie.. until this morning!
Back to my life again! :)

Today, start packing all my notes!!!

The result of packing!

BEFORE...

And..
AFTER...

Today suppose to go Kbox with dear they all..
But...
Tml is my grandma anniversary!
So, must be 'Quai'!

Cos i know if i go K, i will end up coming home tml early in the morning!
Mayb 7am or 8am!

So, i decide nt to go! Sry DEARs! A broken promises! ;p

Sch reopen

2008-01-21T19:18:00.001+08:00

Frm the day sch reopen, I had nv really happy b4!

Sch are busy.. Projects made me cries, made me happy, made me realised.
Test gives me hopes and yet provided tears.

Projects draw the line nearer with the others classmates.. & also destroy a relationship.
Cos of projects, we become frds.. we stay till late nite in sch just to complete a project.
Cos of projects, we stop talking to each other.
Cos of projects, we quarrel.. A firece arguement.. but its made us and ivan nearer.
Cos of projects, we clear up misunderstanding with jy and zach.
Cos of projects, i realised wat's the definition of 'ren xin'!
Projects drive me crazy. Give me tears. Made me sad.

Test gives me worry. And i failed my test.

I start to feel insecure. Hoping everything will be fine.
I'm worry, I'm scare! I'm afraid!
I scare i lose to the world..
I'm really afraid!

DEAR! GIVE ME STRENGTH!!!
I SCARE!

That's the END of project!!!

Project is over, But.. i just duno y. i'm afraid!!!

This whole month, i nv try to get a peaceful mind. A peaceful heart.

Involve in an accident after my retest. And i get this ticket!!!

Saturday, went loyang da po gong to pray with elaine, seng and weiwen.
Saw an accident at mandai.

Just now, a news frm mum..
Aunt gt a cancer..

Life is short!
We cant really predict wat will happen next.
Cherish everyone beside u! REALLY!

I hope i'm able to cherish u all..

Bye 2007!

2008-01-01T14:22:00.000+08:00

31st Dec 2007!
Last day of 2007..

Countdown at Marina..
Waiting for firecrackers
(BEAUTYFUL moments is always SHORT but BEST!)

5.. 4.. 3.. 2.. 1..

GooD ByE 2007!

2007 is over!

2008 is HERE!

Every unhappiness in 2007 was blown away..

Happy memories will always been remember!!

2007 is an enjoyable year..

2008 will be even BETTER!!

A New begin of everything..

A new start..

A new chapter..

A new life..

A new Caifen..

I promise..

I will work even harder in 2008!

It's the final of the final..

another 1 month plus to my grad!

SO0o..

I promise..

I will work double, thriple for it!

TO0o many enjoyment in 2007 le..

Dun bear to leave the enjoy & move back to sch.

2007 over is a start of 2008

the reopen of sch..

Many projects undone..
& i believe..
Sch = home
Everyday go sch in the early morning but back home in the late night.
But nvm..
I will work hard.. STRIKE for it!!

Guys..!
Let's work hard together! :)

Resolutions: 5'H's but not 5'C's

HAPPY! (All type of happiness!)
HEALTHY! (Slim and No sick!)
HARMONY! (Peacfullness!)
HONEY! (A 'He' to accompany.. )
HOLIDAYS! (Enjoyment..)

2 Exception 'H's:
Hassle! (I dun1 any difficulties to settle!)
Hacker! (Because.. I CARE!)

M3rRy X'MAs!

2007-12-25T14:25:00.000+08:00

It's Christmas!!!
Merry Christmas to every1!!!

This x'mas, nt much wishes.. All I nd is just santa to brings happiness!

I'm really enjoyed!

X'mas eve.. Went lunch with elaine at bpp. Go her hse blog!
Meet meimei & qin at bpp again!
Meet wen at vivo!
Shop, Chat & crazy fun! (4 crazy out frm woodbridge!)
Having dinner.. Pepper Lunch for x'mas eve!

After that, i meet dear they all again!
CHAT! CHAT! CHAT!
Fun! Fun! Fun!
Long time nv chat like tat le!
It's really crazy fun!
But.. A little tired.. So went home early.. :)

Anyway, Its FUN!!!

Ok! Now random x'mas tree for u!!
TO WISH.. Everyone 'Merry X'mas!'!

Chirstmas Day with the gals of ITEs..

2007-12-23T14:24:00.001+08:00

A X'mas meeting with the ITEs Gals at Velocity..

While waiting for wendy, nothing to do..
(So, Self photo session in the toilet!)

Random of our photos!

Having Lunch cum dinner at Fish & Co.

The completed outcome with our finished and full stomach
(The waste of food!)

Having my ice cream at Hans!

My gift of the day

Family gathering for X'mas!

(Having Fast food Fest..)

Mc.. Pizza, KFC!!! (FAT!)

Fajar Secondary School!!!

2007-12-23T14:00:00.000+08:00

Friday! 21st Dec 07!
BACK to FAJAR SECONDARY SCHOOL!

(My Secondary sch! Where i had nt step in for more than 5years!)

Guess which is my classroom?
(Last level, last room!)
Just right outside of our classroom!
(The Pond! No changes! haha..)
My classroom!!! in 4T1!

Outside the Canteen
(The assembly area!)

Deleted some photos!! in the canteen!
Sad!!!
That's FAJAR Hall!!!
And.. Technical Room!
The Updates after we left!

Laptop eveywhere!
The toilet in FAJAR!

And Last.. The chirstmas tree in FAJAR!!!

After Fajar Sec.. I went Science Centre!
(Last visit is during primary school ba?)
Imagine.. How long i nv go there!

So coincidence that I think it's all abt 'hui wei' for the day ba! haha..

Another East Coast Day

2007-12-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

It's another EAST COAST DAY!!!

Cycle, Cycle and Cycle..
Cycle all the way from East coast to Changi Airport!
Sound crazy! but.. we did!

Just 2 Words to describe: FUN! HAPPY!

My picture TALKS!!!

Changi Airport!!!

Sand Castle!!!

X'mas is around the corner!

&.. Disney is here to celebrate! Haha..

Happy! x 10000000000000000000000000000000000

2007-12-17T22:27:00.001+08:00

3rd Day of holiday!!!

It's a super HAPPY Day!!!
HAPPY x 100000000000000000000000000000000000!!!
Haha!

Gt so many coincidence thingy happen!!!

First! Wake up early in the morning!
Go shoping with mummy and dear dear!
Shop & shop & shop! Buy Clothes! Buy diff colour of dye hair solution!

Spend & spend! But dun feel the pain!

Shop frm morning to afternoon!
Went to bpp.. Intend to wait for 5566! BUT..

When i trying to go toilet, i saw few guys in black beside me so familiar..

Open my eyes big wide!!

AND!!!! Its 5566!!!

Oh my god! They walk towards mummy at the moment! AND..

Enter into this restaurant..

I went in also!!! to celebrate mummy belated birthday!

Went toilet.. 5566 also rite behind of me! (U know!! Toilet is booked by 5566 only wor! Cos my bro wanna go toilet BUT.. been block!)

Out of toilet.. Saw them again!

NEXT.. My craziness start! (cos they are just rite infront of us!!)

Trying to snap at them!! (Give them no privacy!! Haha..)

Food came.. (Delicious!!!)

BUT.. There’s a moment where 5566 start staring at us! Eye with eyes contact (Me & Qin Feel scare instead of happy!)

Call for Bill! (wow!!! Nice figure!! Nvm.. I willing to pay! :) )

Waiting them out! (cos know plaza & 56 too well! Know where they wanna go next. So, we track the path!) & take another snap!
NEXT.. Their Auto session!

And some random photo of me!!!

In the past.. I’m one of the crazy fans in the picture below!

NOW! I’m snapping my craziness in the past!

Just can’t imagine ba! I’m one of the fans who will do a lot of crazy stuffs!
Chase them..! Book Cab! Follow them! Eat with them!

NOW!! I nv intend to eat with them! But.. They come & eat with me! LOL!
NOW!! I nv follow them where ever they go! But.. They follow me! LOL!
NOW!! I nv do crazy things! But.. I am happy with it!

15 Dec 07!!! Rainy Beach Day + Family Day + Happiness!

2007-12-16T12:31:00.000+08:00

15 DEcEmbEr 2007!!!
(1st day of my holiday!)

RaiNy BEaCh DaY wif All kiNd oF FuN, All kiNd of MEmOriEs!
EvEr sIncE GraNdMa PaSsEd AwAy, Nv Hd wE Hd TiS TyPE of GaThEr!!!

I rEaLlY LOvE iT!!!

(My picture Speaks!!!)

Although rainning, But we able to find shuttle!
(hiding in the shuttle, start gossiping! Noisy Family! The LEE's Family! Haha!!!)
It's our neighbour frm another shuttle!!!
(I hate raining during beach day!)

RaInNinG!! Hiding in the shuttle!
Wif many foods!!!
(Thinking of selling! cos some outsider came into our shuttle to avoid rain..)
During the rain, Saw a little boy.. insist of building sand castle..
(his dad had no choice. Put an umbrella for him) Cute Rite? :)

NExT..

Our Random Photos Taken at EAST COAST PARK!

Having So much Fun!!!
Playing game in the shuttle!
(Passing of Pi Shuo Hua Jiao 比手画脚!)

After so much fun at East Coast Park, We decide to go Marina south to see stars!
It's a beautiful place with beautiful view!
Romance, nice, relax, beauty & wonderful place!
Hide! Hide! Hide!
(Hide frm camera!!!)

Mischeif Min & ME!!!

I Really love it!! Sentosa, East Coast & marina south! Always my best memories since young!
(ever rmb that i always had beach day with family at east coast!)
(National day.. Fire crackers! Pinic with family at Marina south!)
(A best memories at sentosa.. with classmates.. with families!)

I love These places which brings me back to my past!
(The BEST memories i ever had in my life!)

Hope!!! More Funs coming out! :)

Surprisingly!!!

2007-12-15T09:24:00.000+08:00

Test is over! Yday last paper!!! LAST TEST!!! Haha..

Suppose to have plently sleep.. BUT.. Surprisingly.. I never sleep for the whole night without feeling tired at all leh!

Either Too happy or wat le! Today, yoga + beach day with grandpa they alll!! haha.. LOL!

Anyway, I think i gonna be happy for this holiday although nd to go back to sch for project. BUT i just cant imagine.. 5566 is coming! my craziness day is coming!!! X'mas coming.. Holiday mood le! Horray! Yipee!

I love TA23!!! Even everyday project, i also dun feel tired! I also dun hate it! I love the joy! I love the Fun in TA23!

Summaries for the week of the test..

Eat & eat & eat!!!

EAT till rubbish bin is FULL

EAT till Empty!!!
Niece (xue en) 1st birthday!
Nice food for her celebration!

Today.. Alot of things!!! More pic coming out when i received all! ;p

Tired!

2007-12-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

SO0o Tired!

A day is later than a day to go home! cos of the AFA! everyday went home after lights off in sch!!! 10pm.. 11pm..

& Finally, AFA is over!!! My sleepless day is gone! & I had been sleeping for the whole afternoon today! Frm 3.30pm to 7.30pm! (Pro rite?) haha..

Today MA test! B4 i step into the LT, I am full of confident but when i received the paper, my confident level drop immediately to negative! And walk out of the LT with a worry heart! Gosh! This is just the 1st paper! & i start to worry! My god!!!

After MA test, me & oxy rushed! rushed to yoga! yoga main purpose is to relax! but my mind is full of MA! i just cant relax for the day.

& later go hm.. EAT! cos super hungry!! & i finally had my french fries! Hee..
EAT and Sleep for the day! Blogging, gaming! just to relax myself!

4 more papers to go! so.. Wish me all the lucks!!!

Relax day!

2007-12-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

wat a relax day for me!

Finally i get myself relax today!

Wake up early for some oily fried noodles.

Went Yoga with qin, mei & oxy

(See Lian for 6days in a wk! Sianz! Haha!)

Back home for lunch!

(Oily stuff again.. Fried FAKE scallop, Fried chicken wings, Fried Fish.. Everything Fried!)

Lazy to go out! Too tired to move! Stay at home whole day alone with..

Stupid.. Childish.. but fun game.. (If try to do project everyday den suddenly play a game, no matter wat game will start to seems fun! REALLY!)

Other than GAME, There's something else accompany beside me..

Which includes Hip Hop Pop Music.. MTV.. TV Show.. AND most impt things..

FOODS!!!
Seaweed Soup with eggs!!

Leftover food frm afternoon.. eat bit by bit till now!

My 'salty' fried rice!
(over adding of soya sauce! too long nv cook le! skills drop!)

& MOST IMPORTANT THINGS!!

My fav: Chocolate, Sweet & Tibits!!!So.. In conclusion: Yoga = Gainning FATs! (cos eat too much! Haha..)

BUSY!

2007-11-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

BUSY! BUSY! BUSY! Busy for the whole month!

Projects and TEST!!! TEST coming yet not study! NO TIME!

Project.. Drive us crazy.. Stay in sch everyday.. To analysis for AFA.. A day is later than a day.. Reach hm at 11pm! (But i duno y. I was so willing to stay!) Mayb cos of our 'LIAN' Group ba! haha..

I Love my tutorial class! It's so fun everyday.

Today, wearing in formal for AFA again.. Discussion after MA lecture in LT! A bunch of noise frm TA23 discussing abt grpin between grps..

OUTCOME: Lynette bday with big present frm yong an!

After the discussion, intend to continue as far as possible for AFA but end up gossip! Cos of the idiot Shengbao!

Gossip abt the scandal in sch.. This gossip later on start to include almost all our classmates.. & hav a huge conclusion on different matching! Haha..

It's so fun for the day.. Everyday seems to b a surprise day.. with lots of mystery fun.

LAST Week, Totally busy!

SATURDAY! Ah yi waste my time.. asking us to go her new hse!

Outer view: Tall! Old! Lousy! View frm inner: Scene outside every nice!
Go there, Do nothing!! really!! Waste of TIME! haha..

After gg ah yi hse, we go vivo! A combination of motheral relative (ah kim & kor kor) & paternal relative (Karen & baobei) & later on Min, her mum & her sister joined.. (Cos in same location)..

Saw christmas tree! Reminding me CHRISTMAS is coming! (no plan this year!)

After vivo, Go min dad stalls near kallang.. Eat his Bak Ku Teh! Its nice la.. But i wan my beancurb! Cos i like kallang Beancurb! Thinking to eat it since reached kallang until i left, den to karen hse den to the nxt day..

Finally, dad bought me beancurb frm market nearby!!! & i finally had my beancurb!

Just duno y.. If i sudden think of eating that items, i must get to eat it! Like 'wan zai xiao man dao'! and chocolate! I had them in sch!!! during lecture! haha..

The Ugly hand is frm 1 of the LIAN! OXY! haha..

LATE LATE LATE

2007-11-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

Everyday late home!

School = more than work

Sch = NO OT pay but pay sch fees
Work = OT pay

Sch = Go home must do tutorial, presentation, project, etc
Work = Go home rest

Sch = No life for others
Work = Weekend = Funky nite!

Now..

9am to 8pm School.. (stay in school! Do project!)
A day is later than another!!!

Wed, Do project till 8plus..

Thursday went NAPFA! (5 Stations + 2.4)
Soooo Tired!
Went to hav dinner with my cutie classmates at BT market!
Having cooling sugarcane drink + carrot cake (I shared with Zhenyue - 一人一伴感情不散 haha）
Reah home abt to 10pm..

Fri, we had AFA presentation.. All of them wearing so smart! we are in black & white!!! after lecture, gossip at convention. And meet our LO (AFA tutor) for presentation comment on us.. After that, continue to amend our project.. left at 7plus! Went to meet elaine they all (all sister) with my fomal wear till 11plus! But.. reach home super late cos... Hehe..

Today, Whole body aches! Tooooo Tired!!

But.. Yeah! I love my class! they are super funny!!! (this class gt only 6 gals!!! the rest, is guys!)

Picture of my cutie teammates in formal for our AFA presentation!

(WHY there's extra at the background!!!??? Chase them off leh! hehe..)

Jia jia

2007-11-17T14:52:00.000+08:00

Sorry! i noe i'm emotional today.. But who's cares for it?

After knowing the news, i hav nv try to stop thinking!

I didn't know the wake is only a night! If i knew it early, i will rush dwn to stay w/o slp! Btw, I also nv slp at all even if i'm at home, fliping on the bed, thinking so much. But compare to min, they all, i suddenly feel so bad!!!

I though of rushing here & there today. I dun care of $ le. I dun care whether i'm tired not! i dun care of anything le! I just wan to hav a last sight of my bao bei jia jia only! I dun care whether i am late to lesson even the lesson is sooooooo impt that i nd to attend in order to grad! I really dun care anymore! Really!

I disobey mum's instruction. I'm nt obedient! I know! But.. P/s understand! Even PPP is sooo impt, but we only gt one jia jia! She's 1 of my bao bei! i will regret if i nv see her for the last sight! I'll sure regret for my whole life!

Nv slp for the whole nite, went dwn to sight her for the last time. Escape frm the scene of closing coffin (cos i dun1 to see that she's 4ever left!) to sch! STUPID PPP! Whole mind is thinking of her.

At the 2nd lecture, went out to take a deep breath! staring at the tree.. wonder hw old & strong is the tree.. Its so strong.. just like jia jia. Normal yet strong and inner beauty!

Tell u sth! I'm older by jia jia for almost 20yrs old! (ALMOST! in exact, is 18) But.. instead of i dotes her more, she dotes me even more.. (she will like to listen to my call instead of chating to her others cousins) She protect me.. whenever min bully me, she will help me to revenage! She's adorable.. She's cute! She's strong! she's my motivation as i mentioned long ago! & now, she left!

Ya! she left! but her soul will always in our heart! will miss her 4ever & ever!

Jia! Bless ur family.. Especially ur mummy, daddy & both sister! They really loved u! &.. we love u too!

CRY!

2007-11-16T13:44:00.000+08:00

Few minutes ago! Jia jia had passed away!!!

My baobei passed away!!!
She left!!! She really left!!!
She left us!

My beloved jia jia! u'll stay in my heart 4ever & ever!
Love u always! Miss u always! U will always be rmb!
Jia! CF jie jie loves u! U r my best JIA JIA BAO BEI!

Jia Jia! u must always rmb us also! ok? Promise me please!

Scare!

2007-11-16T12:16:00.000+08:00

Wake up in the morning.. Receive a SMS..

The SMS mentioned:
'From shijia dad.. Shi jia is in danger'! (in chinese)

I was so blur that i don't understand the chinese word. and later, i notice wat its means.

I was so tired.. So worry! I pray, I pray, I pray! Pray v hard for her. Hoping she's fine!
Hoping tat she heard my praying!
Hoping that god hears me!
Hoping tat grandma hear me!
Hoping tat everyone hear me!
Hoping tat she is fine.. With no pain!!!

Suddenly feel so scare and so worry! I just duno y!
Physically in tutorial. Mentally in somewhere praying for her. Thinking of her.
Soul is in hospital.
Mind is with jia jia!
Heart is beating heart for jia jia!
Hands is on laptop instead of tutorial question and classwork!

So, y am i here now?

Dear Mary

2007-11-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

Bringing out something mentioned by mary:

To bring happiness to others &
Able to carry responsible,
Is what human manage to live.

For me:
I cant even feel the happiness. Its so miserable life i am facing. So, How can i bring happiness to others? Ya! I bring happiness to others BUT.. Who will bring me happiness?
I dun dare to hold any responsible & i dun think there's responsible human in this world! If i hold the responsible, den y they nv hold their responsible? Y must i carry all the responsible? Y are they so irresponsible? y?
So, in conclusion, I'm not manage to live on! Rite?!

So sorry! I know.. I shouldn't be so negative. I try very hard to be positive already. But.. I got no choice.. I cant.. Teach me.. if u living in such a complicated world. Everything go messy! U needs to carry so many heavy item on your back. u try to put them down but there's nowhere to let u put dwn. u cant throw on the floor cos i may crash! What u shd do? Carry lor!!!

IF somehow, u are been force to do something u dun like, but u must also do it! What do u feel?

I am back to sch! The stressful life & yet things happened again! Y? y always choose the timing where i am stressful? y? can anyone tell me?

How i wish i could return back to the youngs. Back to my mischeif, Back to my naughty. Back to my happiness. Back to myself. I miss my crazy. I miss my smile (the real and nature smile)! I miss.. I miss! I really miss myself! I'm living in the dark. Showing out the fake caifen. I really feel xin ku le! i cant take it anymore!!!

I wanna cry! Wanna cries out loud! Can I?

DEAR!!! DEAR!!! DEAR!!! MY DEAR!!! Please! Escape me ASAP!
I hate this life!!! I hate it! I Hate it! I really hate it!

Funny entries!!!

2007-11-08T01:28:00.000+08:00

HaHa! Skipping school again.. Broke my promises.. Sorry!

During tutorial, never pay attention at all.. So tired.. So boring..

Everyday sch = Fat day.. (Having pinic in lecture & tutorial)

Oxy & my conversation.. haha.

Too many nice tibits le la!! Especially co-op.. So many Meiji chocolate...
My favourite!

#YuMmY!!!# Oishi Nei..

Although skip sch,
BUT.. i quite 'Kuai' de hor! Cos I stay at home during deepavali!!! (NEVER GO OUT AT ALL!)

BUT.. Even I stay at home will also grow FAT.. Cos i ordered Pizza! haha.. YuMmy.. YuMmy..!

Although YuMmy, BUT Ex leh! Ok?!

Today, Saturday.. A day where there's no sch.. BUT.. We went to sch.. Cos of the stupid 'PPP'! & cos of this PPP, i skip my yoga lesson! STUPID!!!

See the sentence in Bold? 'FAILURE TO MEET THIS REQUIREMENT WILL RESULT IN YOU NOT BEING ABLE TO GRADUATE!'

Wat a strong sentence! Today, Hp alarm spoil again.. Nv ring at all. But lucky tat i wakey automatically.. IF not, die! Rushing out of hse w/o bathing, dressing up myself & nt even toiletry lor. Just brush up myself, get a change in my shorts + polo tees den run..

Wat a day wasted in such a stupid lesson.. Especially our tutor.. Really feel like helping her to get another reborning + some treatment.. She is really a 'Pi zhe yang pi de lang' leh! Meaning a wolf with goat skins.. Her look seems so nice yet..., 'wahaha' tutor! Right oxy? wahaha.. lol!

Getting home, get myself a shower & lazy to go out! Put aeroplane to my cousin & meimei. Staying at home.. Staring at my 'cute', 'silly', 'stupid' & 'cant find words to describe le' brother.. Doing alot of stupid thingy.

Know wat he did? He made our home into a so called '5 Star Hotel'.. With so called '5 Star hotel' service. BUT, somehow torturing la. He dun let us to hav dinner until dad is back. ok.. nvm.. i wait.. cos i had some junk meal b4 that.

The following is wat he made for his '5 Stars hotel' services..

As wat '5 star hotel' serve.. A plate of penuts before dinner starts..

A Menu cover page with the words 'Five Star hotel house'!

Chinese Menu with same meaning..

Inside the menu, The contents: 1) Curry, 2) Fish ball or scallop nugget, 3) Drinks: Anything, Sports drink, new water, ribena and chestnut..

Same menu item as above but had translate to chinese..

Ok.. Let's see the food now..

My brother '5 Stars hotel' curry! (haha!! lol!)

& the fishball + scallop nugget! (5 Stars standard hor!!!) wahaha!!!

AND... Not ended! cos there's another stupid item coming up..

His creation rubbish bin.. With words inside.. 'Hello! This is me. I am 3R.' His 3R means: Reduce, Reuse & Recycle.. BUT..., He used a NEW A4 paper to make this stupid rubbish bin to throw his curry fish bone! Funny rite? & this called re-use & recycle? Haiz! Really.. Dun understand kids! So cute & funny!

LaZy W33k!!!

2007-10-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

I had been sooooo lazy for the whole week. Intend to do tutorial but end up, go out!!! Lazy!!!

Sleeping in lecture.., packing my stuffs finding that... Alot of medicine! gosh! hw often i fall sick!!!

Lazy for the whole week. Did nothing at all.. Go out with dear they all for a stupid, disgusting, boring and lame movie!!! during fri nite..

Sunday suppose to b a family outing!!! Went to East Coast Park... preparing to rent for bicycle for a cycle.. BUT... End up raining!!!

Stuck in the vehicle.. Capturing our craziness for the day w/o cycle!

Went East Point for dinner.. Nothing to do..

OHNO!!!! I Grow FATTTTT!!!

We are in our EX-sch uniform! Promoting our sch! Hahaz!

So late le!! They grab my toliet!! Waiting for toliet to take a bath!!

So many crazy photo but my sister deleted away!! Bad Mei Mei!! Hahaz!

Scary Nitemare!

2007-10-21T13:05:00.000+08:00

Sch for fri (2pm - 4pm)! Stupid timing!!! But.., cos mummy was sick, so wakey quite early just to do some hsewrk b4 i left to sch. It's raining.. decide nt gg to sch but promised tat i wdnt bon again. So, i kp my promise. Drag myself to sch! &.. i nv go out wor! i nv go out tat day! Surprise ba! (Cos mummy is sick! Nd to cook & pack! haha..)

Yday, went bedok for dinner wif 2 of my bao bei...

& had some mischief in the vehicle..

Reach hm late, watch scary movie (nt scary at all!), online for awhile. Went to bed! Had a nightmare! Cdnt slp well!!! Sianz!!! Dream of something horrible.., (Sry! i cdnt mention anything abt the dream.. cos it's relate to somebody), But, when i wakey, i heard of something tat related to my dream. I mentioned my dream to mummy. Its seems to b so real. Coming to realistic & i was so worry! So scare.. How?

1st entries after sch reopen!

2007-10-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

1st entries after sch reopen! So much to say! So much to tell! So much to share!!!

& Most important things is...
TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Yeah! Today is my birthday & wd like to thanks for all the SMSes, E-mail, Friendster comments, Calls, wishes & even suprises!!! Thanks for remembering...

Got surprise by the big ah beng, sista ian!!! Come into the lecture hall and Give me a shock! Thanks for the wishes.

Went out with Oxxygen & Qing after sch. Although everything isnt planned but overall, thanks for it.

So, I will let the picture to do the talkings...

Lecture start at 11am!!!
muching with oxy 'wan zai xiao man dou' in the lecture with shengbao!

My Birthday Cake frm oxy & Qing!
The heart shape! Strawberry sweetheart..

2nd cake of the day! By my dear dear sister..

& so, my days was really fulfiled! I ended my day with qing! SO0o touched!!! Thanks... SPECIAL THANKS TO QING!!! u really made my day! Thanks thanks thanks! :) Thousands thanks, millions thanks to u!

Tue & wed is just a 2hrs sch time! (9am - 11am) only!!!

Wed... (just the day b4 my bday!) went to bt timah market to hav lunch with oxy, qing, michelle & sista Ian poh.. Had the softy & yummy beancurb...! Delicious...

Few days ago, 16th Oct (Tue) went to jurong point to have our meal at pizzahut of jurong Point..

We had our baked rice, pasta & Beef Lasagne..

We Finished our meal!!! Clean hor?

Bill Please.. We are student lei!! Student meal..

Next, Our fun in the pizzahut..

Oh my god! WAT A BIG HEART!!! SO0o Nice lor!!!

Last Posting!!! b4 sch reopen!

2007-10-14T19:10:00.000+08:00

SOOO000ooo Fast! Sch reopen! 2moro!!! 2moro gg back to sch!!!! I dun like sch anymore! How?

Past few days, it's really a relax! No work, no job, no study, no stress, Only happiness and relax!

Went to Shop with Qing, went Kbox, went to beach, went alot of fun places!!! Yeah! that's the kind of life i want! ;p

BUT!!! Kbox, nt enough!!! i havnt sing all the songs i want... but nvm la! cos i really like it le! den beach, cycle for only one hr, its start to rain! sian! return the bike but rain stopped! Wat the... hee.. nvm la! anyway, its enough also! den also baobei came my hse! dun let me go out! cos i intend to go out to buy my shoes yday. but she insist to come my hse! den after tat, we visited Jia jia! my cutie jia jia! :)

My cutie Jia Jia! Jia You!

The Cutie Jia jia with her sister (the KNS!) haha!

KNS and ME!
After visiting jia jia, go for dinner. and buy my sister hp! Den meet dear they all under my void deck! celebrating my bday! with the chocloatly walnut cake.. its tastly! and yet fatty! but who's cares? haha! I am nt disappoint my dear. cos i am nt hoping so much. chat and chat and chat! Chat until midnight 3.30am! Cant imagine ba? we can chat so much! Chat abt past, teach my sister hw naughty we are in the sch! teach her how to b as naughty as us! haha! BAD wor! ;p BAD ah dear also! Teach my sister so many tricks!!!

Holiday!!!

2007-10-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

Last friday is my last day of work.

Yday, go sch den go hospital to donate blood! once again, my iron is not enough (too low! another word: hypotension) to donate blood!

After tat, my mum know it, keep on scolding me.. cos of my health! Always nv listen to her! But this happen since young wat! wat can i do? No matter wat, still like tat de mah.

Just dun care leh! A human life only few of the tens years. So, y bother so much leh?

I just wanna donate when i gt enough blood to save others. Others wants to live longer and have lesser chance. so, i am helping them. i nv get any loss! (Zhu ren wei kuai le zhi ben!) hehe.

But too bad, i cant donate to jia jia even i success donating blood. cos jia jia cant hav my blood... her body cant afford it, it will reject my blood!!! sobsob!

Anyway, yday visit Jia Jia! miss her so much! almost half year nv saw her le ba! She's so cute! adorable! So happy tat i hav finally get to visit her. Always fall sick, always busy. Always nv get the chance to visit her. really miss her! miss her madly! miss her badly! Miss her soooo much! sooo much! Sorry Jia Jia! Sorry for being so bad!!! Sorry for nt visit u so long! sorry for u to miss me!

Yday visit Jia Jia, aunt say i grow 'FAT'!!! And Really i grow FAT! This is the fate! I believe in my aunt. She nv ever lie to me since young. The most happy things she mentioned is tat, i grow fat but more pretty! Haha!!! ;p

No matter wat, i still love the figure i have even hearing this type of appraise by aunt and collegue. Cos... which woman will like to grow fat ar? hehe..

Just now, went for kbox..., k for 5hrs but nt enough... cos alot of songs nt sang! sianz! time not enough for us la! haha! but i think even give us 12hrs, also nt enough for us de lor! hee..

refresh!

2007-10-08T10:56:00.000+08:00

Alarm rings.., lazy to woke up! lying on bed! sleepin wif blanket on. Force myself to get up. wash up myself, change into my shorts and tees.. carried the lappy! prepare to go sch!

Walk out of hse! sun lights shines on me, fresh air circulating. so fresh! taking bus, crossing tat stupid bridge. walking in to the sch.. Feeling like having exams instead of lesson BUT w/o exam stress! Feel so relax!

How i wish everyday will be so fresh and relax..

Sch reopen soon! hope the feel wd b same. No stress but relax..

Start of my holidays! everyday was planned.. the whole week was occupied with funs and crazy! and some important item. i need to relax! and hav a great fun b4 sch start! recharge my energy level to the fullest! prepare for the journey tat awaiting for me! looking forward for the brightness day. hoping all kinds of mirage to happen.

No more other thinkings.. All unhappiness will b gone! COZ... CAIFEN IS REBORN!

STOP ALL THE NONSENSE! STOP TELLING ME LIES! I dun1 anymore hope from u guys le! Past is past! dun worry.. those happy moment will b part of my memories. Will write an ending for the story.

I will start up my new chapter w/o u all throughout. A happy story. with endless happy moment and endless story! :)

Time Flies!

2007-10-02T10:37:00.000+08:00

Time flies fast! Really fast! 2 more days in the company. 1week of funs. 12 more days to Sch reopen. 14 more days to my Birthday!!! Birthday coming after sch reopen. Grow old again!

Miss the company! miss the fun. miss all colleague! miss my mischief, miss cat & felicia dotes, noisy karen, cutie yea lee, toto king keong & chris, best senior khim & doreen, nice bernice, helpful joanne, best partner christina & Thida and the Abuser ah ling..

A brand new refresh! An old environment with new feel & thoughts. New classmates, new 'Lousy' time table, Everything back to usual again. Hope my life will b usual too! with no worries and no more extra thoughts! I dun wan any hope now! i just want a peaceful sch life! :)

So much thinking in my mind!

2007-09-30T12:28:00.000+08:00

2months ago, went out wif elaine family, her dad, her uncle, her aunt, her cousin & her granny.

2days ago, i attend elaine granny wake.

Just cant imagine ba?! Things surround us are so unexpected! Anything will happen anytime & anywhere. we cant predict wat will happen 2moro but we can treasure wat we hav now.

In my mind, alot of things appear.. Appearing some nonsense item! Asking myself whether i hav made a rite choice. Wondering whether every friends in my life is a true frd to me. Why is it tat they will disappear when i need them.

I wonder.. Wonder how my family will like after i go back to sch. No more salary! will they still asking $ frm me? will the life still be the same as now?

I just cant imagine how my life will be. Please..! Pardon me! Recuse me! Help me!

I feel so worthless in the world! Wat on earth is this? So Miserable! So confuse! So complicated! So Irresponsible! So Tired! So sad!

Where's the happiness? Where's the laughter? where's my smile? Ya! there's smile, a fake smile that doesn't came out frm my heart!

Wat happen la? Why? Can anyone tell me? i dun1 this type of life. I hope i am nt been force to do something stupid!

It's Mid-Autumn!!!

2007-09-25T17:50:00.000+08:00

It's Mid-autumn! Happy mooncake fest! hehe.. Quite busy during the wkend. Finally find times to blog! ;p Busy, Busy, Busy! Busy and tired but happy! Since fri to now! go out, meet frd, go ah na hse, go pray, go shawn hse, etc. Tired but busy! haha..

JB Trip

2007-09-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

1st time go JB for work! actually nt really work lor! shop more den work. Haha.. Shop and shop and shop.. But.. nv buy much things back.. regret! regret tat nv bought more mooncake back!!
Tired! Tired! Tired! Suddenly feel so tired! long time nv shop le! haha! Wanna get myself a day to shop and shop and shop! Qing!! let's go crazy shopping 1s again.. okok? Hee.. sch reopen soon! Y? Y? Y? Y qing wanna change class? ur class really gd lor! i really like ur class! but haiz! no fate to b in the same class for the last sems! so sad! stupid system la! nvm, we still got IS! at least same class for once a wk! better den nothing ba! ;p

So tired!

2007-09-19T10:58:00.000+08:00

Blog again!!!

There's still no time slot last nite! So sad! So, end up in ACC0523! No choice lor! It's the fate frm the heaven. Juz take it ba!

Last sems le! Juz bear with it! and strike for it le lor! Wat can i do? Juz to accept only. But lucky tat i hav oxygen! tat give me the breathing all the time. Haha.. Oxygen! dun ever leave me alone in the long time table class! i will cry!

the next headache things coming up will be the selection of IS... Coming soon.. Next Mon! Yeah! It's Next Monday!

2moro gg JB.. BUT.. It's for Work! So many, so many things! Haiz! Y my life is so busy? I juz need a break! Can I? I juz wan a relax! with dear? with someone i can lie on! Someone who i can feel relax!

Saturday! Saturday gg ah na hse! haha! gg to mess up her hse! yeah!

Sweet, Romance, Sad, Angry & Confuse

2007-09-18T11:24:00.000+08:00

Got too many things to blog on for today.. Things happened b4 i wakey, after wakey..., Just few hrs ago..., and NOW! SO, it gonna b a long entries!

Guess wat i dream.. I dream of the same guy again. Juz duno y. I noe tat there will nt b anything between 2 of us. BUT always dream of him. (So sad!! Y nt a handsome guy? ;p) Always feel so swt & romance wif him in the dream. he always treat me well. and so swt against me. BUT it's juz a dream. if its true, i duno whether it's gd or bad.

few hrs ago, register for time table! but nv get into the class i wan.. (SAD!!!) duno wat i am doing also. Just cant access! (ANGRY!) nvm. I will try it at nite.. cos I take hrs leave home.. prepared to chiong for the class. haha.

Thurs, i am gg JB! but nt for fun. It's for work. So, it gonna be a busy week for me! Sianz!!!

Watermelon!!!

2007-09-16T21:11:00.000+08:00

Yday, went to a supermarket!!! Panning to hav a bbq gathering.. Looking at some foods at the foods and fruits category.. AND.. These fruits caught our eyes!!! Guess wat fruit?! It's Watermelon!!! The type and price of the watermelon!

A normal big round watermelon cost S$4.50..

And guess hw much is the seedless watermelon..?

It's cost S$12.50!!!

NOW!!! Guess... How much is a 'SQUARE' watermelon?

YES!!! IT'S 'SQUARE'!!!

A 'SQARED' watermelon cost: S$68!!!

Ex rite? this isn't the amaze part yet.. the most amaze things is..

The Clause!!! which mentioned..

The watermelon was display at the category of fruit but its was nt for consume. So, why? Y display in the category of fruit? Really dun understand lor!

2nd entries for the day!!!

2007-09-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

Monday, I'm gg to JB for assisgnment!!!

Monday!!! My appointment for class time table in the morning!

Now, nd to calculate opportunity cost! Choice is to go for overseas assisgnment or to select for time tabling.

The opportunity cost for assisgnment is i'll b miserable for the whole sems. Opportunity cost for time tabling is tat, i may nt hav 2nd chance for overseas assisgnment.

Well, Although my mind is clear tat time tabling is v important but..., i dun wanna to miss the opportunity. Y? Y? Y? Y must i choose? Haiz! Is there any alternative?

Out of the sudden, I realised..

Choice is ours, opportunity also belongs to us! Grab it or give up. Make a wise choice & dun ever made ourself regret. cos once regret, nv a 2nd chance will always b given. treasure the choice u made. cherish the circumstance for the choice. Every challenge is a lesson for us to realise and grow. SO, I wanna make my BEST choice!!!

Eating snake..

2007-09-14T10:29:00.000+08:00

Haha! guess wat? I am eating snake...!!! Lazy to work! cos its FRIDAY! (TGIF!!!)

Result is out! AND.. i get B+.. Result isn't as gd as wat i expected. BUT nvm la! satisfied wif my result.

Days passed a day by a day.. I become more worry for it! i duno y also. Worry for sch? work? Money? I hope my worry is an extra item..

Days passed.. Brand new lifestyle coming rite on the way to my life. Life w/o working, life w/o colleague. BUT Life include studying and friends. Wonder whether my studying life will be as great as b4. & I really hope so.

During the year, alot of changes in my life. Some idiots dash into my life, mess up my behavior, change my leisure style, and even making me fall in love with the lifestyle. BUT.. those idiots and unbelievable lifestyle disappear recently. Well..! I cd say is tat, i miss those idiots and the lifestyle. HAHA! BUT.. I dun think it wd ever happen again. So, will let it to be my best memory with them ba. & start my brand new lifestyle.

Cant wait to change myself into a new caifen in a new environment, new classmates, new frd, new dear, everything new! CAIFEN will start afresh again! Dun interrupt and mess up her life again! ok? hehe..

2007-09-05T15:33:00.001+08:00

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Update!!!

2007-09-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

I find myself been long nv blog, so here i am to update! BUT.. i duno where to start or wat to say.

Frd? Family? Work? School? Study? Leisure? Health?
Well.. nthin much to update lor!!! Cos i am sick & tired of my life le! dun think i can manage it.
As wat my nick mentioned: My colours in my world starts to fade off and i dun1 it to happen but duno how and duno y it happen.

Life start to be no meaningful. Dun dare to think. Dun dare to look back for the memories. Dun dare to look forward for a dream. AND... worst things is DUN DARE TO STAND ON THE SPOT!

Dun dare to look back cos memories is too gd to hav. Dun dare to compare it! its like living frm heaven and been punish to hell.

Dun dare to dream cos i dun dare to hope. Dun dare to face another crisi. when there's no hope for it, there will be no disappointment! isn't it?

Dun dare to stand on the spot cos i dun1 to continue this kind of miserable life. I may look strong but in fact, there's alot of hidden story behind which made me crazy, mad, miserable, sad, disappointted and even collapse!!!

What i want now is a peaceful life! A no worrries life! A happy go lucky girl standing rite infront of u!

Shawn is the winner

2007-08-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

Congrats Shawn! Feel so happy for u.. Hope its a good start for u w/o any stress! Jia you wor our superstar. U made us proud of u.

I am super tired but i enjoy

2007-08-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

Haha.. think i gg to grow fat today for a least 3kg ba... hehe..

Cos from afternoon till now, i havnt stop eating. Except for the journey travelling in the transportation. other than that, i have been keep on eating and eating.

At my clients place, they having 7month festival. Den they ordered buffet.. Alot of variety lor. then, eat and eat and eat. slack for the whole day. chating and eat. audit halfway, feel hungry, go dwn and eat again. haha...

After that, having bbq gathering.. its genie bday cum angie and serene farewell cum gathering lor. haha... Its really quite fun. cos we hav been long nv seen each other. Chat, eat and chat. Really feel super relax today.

BUT... i gonna be FAT!!! ;p anyway, i dun care so many le. FAT only mah. so long as healthy. and that's the main purpose. :)

It's a LONG BREAK!

2007-08-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

Fianlly, its a long break! taking off today.. So from wed, do project, catch movie, chit chat till yday morning. unable to wake up to accompany my bao bei to NDP. haiz.. but nvm la. think will meet them sunday instead. haha.

Today, take off but still wake up very early cos of my uncle! he suddenly call for help. Lucky that i am off today. if nt. haiz..

Book half day cab. (actually only 4hrs cab la! hehe.. no halfday.) Travel from east coast, to jalan basar, den to my sch, at the same time, fetch my mum home. within 4 hrs, we went for all these places. haha.. the driver is so cute. he told us alot abt the rites of human. where i think its really meaningful and did like to share it out.

The driver said: In this world, there is 3 type of human in the road. (normal, handicapped and old people) The normal people will let the handicapped on the road to move 1st. cos they are disable. and that's y, our road is nv ever straight. just like our life. We encounter alot of things. road is nv been straight for us. U can overtake it, and u can make a turn to reach ur destination. and when u are old, those youngster will also give way to u. cos u r already old. u go through the journey. u learn frm ur mistake, understand hw danger the road is and start to avoid those uneven road and knowing which journey is safe. and that's the meaning of human!

After gg to sch, i meet my sister to hav pizza!!! den after that go k for fun.. haha.. long time nv k le! really enjoy! cos there's 2 mad gal jumping, dancing and singing in the kbox. my sister scare i cries, she made all my sad songs to become happy song. She's forever like tat. Avoiding me frm crying! love her so much. haha.

Family Day!!!

2007-07-30T09:23:00.000+08:00

Once again.., we went to farm yday wif those naughty little cute devil kidz.. So long nv been there le.. Back to the same old place, havin difference feeling. The feel wasn't there any longer & so sad that, the horse has passed away...! sobsob.. But nvm, we enjoyed once again. I love the gathering best.. although nt all the family attended. however, it's a really happy day lor.

And although all the expenses for my family yday were sponsor by me. but i really willing to spend this kind of expense.. cos i know that its really worth de. nt like... haiz.. dun mention it now! cos my mind is in the happy mode now. hehe. hope there's a gathering again every wkend, alternate wkend, or every mth. :)

A weird Saturday

2007-07-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

Meeting my teammates in sch to do the multimedia project. Wake up late and reach late. After the meeting, suppose to meet suyin but cant reach her. Such a waste of time waiting for her. haha.. but nvm la. nt her fault also. its hp fault! haha. Suddenly received my best sister sms. Thinking of taking a trip to her hse push her to study & frm her hse, i watched the show 'huan huan ai' (exchange of love) in another word 'why why love'. Feeling some lines very suit me and also the problem is almost same for me... and there's a line i love best!

'The most that i don't need in my life is 'DREAM', the most things tat i nt interested is 'LOVE'. Because i dun1 myself to get disappointed.. AND Because if there is no dream, there will be no disappointment.'

Actually, i really afraid of dispointment. therefore, i dun dare to aim tat high anymore. and also i dun dare to love b'cos i afraid of loss.

OK! i think i dun talk abt the show anymore b'cos i think i hav really alot to mention today ba.

hmm.. and its time to share out le. B'cos i know alot of them is really concern for it. i dun speak out but blog abt it ba. i dun1 to repeat everything again and again. i dun wanna cries anymore. so after this entries, PLEASE STOP ASKING ME WAT HAD HAPPEN TO ME AGAIN. ok? thanks..

B'cos wat happen in elaine hse really bring me back alot of memories. keep thinking if everything nt change, i will be as happy as wat it is ba.

In the past, every member of the family will went to my grandma hse for a gather. for chat, happy argument, play and fun. nw, nt even once in few months to grandpa hse. not much gathering anymore. In the past, beach, park, farm, shopping mall, etc is where we always went together. nw, avoid to go out together. b'cos wanna avoid another quarrel. In the past, there's little quarrelment surround or even none. nw, quarrel for finance, quarrel for other every small things. In the past, we love to go straight home rite after sch. nw, avoid to go home. In the past, we love wkends alot because dad will bring us out to somewhere for exploding. nw, avoid to go out in case of borrowing $ frm us again. In the past, there's so many things we love. nw, other den avoid, still avoid... hw we wish everything unchange. but now...!? everything changed! i really dun like this kind of life.

Juz now, having experience in elaine family, let me feel warm and 'xian mu'. hw i wish granny is still around. hw i wish my family is ever so happening. but everything really change.

Having of so many problem now! me & my sister is facing a big problem. and this problem cdnt be solve. Hw we wish to find a place to hide and cry.

We really duno y. really!!!!

My final decision

2007-07-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

Finally, i have made up my mind! Planned my schedule! I think, I think my time will be getting lesser le ba! I was so worry that i cant cope sooooo many things together. I scare i might loss my frds, loss the feeling, loss the interest and even mayb family. But hope the true wd proof me wrong! cos i now think tat, if... i gt lesser time to contact my frd, If they are really the true frd, even if we get less contact, we will nt missed and totally loss contact ba! den for family, they know de la! haha.. den as for fun, shd throw aside 1st le lor! no choice! ok la! since i hd made my decision le, hope everything will be smooth for me ba!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!

2007-07-14T23:53:00.000+08:00

This 2days, meeting the same old and nagging people! This person got so many things to chat! so noisy!!! ;-p only the person know who i am refering ba! haha!!! But i hav been long nv feel so relax and happy le! This 2days, really made me lighten alot!

yday, go queue for donuts.. i cutted queue! but nt really la! cos tat person go queue 1st. hehe.. waited and waited.. Finally got our munchy donuts from the LONG QUEUE 'donut factory'! Bought it in bulk (2dozen! but 1dozen is for my cousins..)! Wondering if i could give some to my 'dear' they all and share with them. But too bad!! they gt no fortune to share it! haha!!! But after i bought home, it was finish 3quarter within few hours. It taste gd la! but quite normal frm outside bakery leh! & some more, its very swt lor!!! As for my opinion, i dun think its worth to queue so long jus to buy the donuts frm the donut factory lor! haha! Sry! shd nt destroy the brand! ;-p

Today is really a relax and happy day for us! Feel so relax and peaceful!! We went for serveral places!

Travel & travel! from my hse, to woodland. den to tampiness the central, den to pasir ris, den suppose to go beach but take wrong bus. end up at a park. but still gt "sea" & "sand" la! and the most enjoy part is gt swing! for us to play! long time nv play swing le! haha!!! so still ok la! juz tat we missed our sunset! but nvm, nxt time den go! hehe... den after the park, we go white sand. den back to tampiness again, den woodland & finally go hm! haha! Quite alot of places lor! ;-p

All the way, we Chat & chat! Shop & shop! argue & argue! play & play! Totally forget abt the time. No worries, only have fun. :) Almost go crazy! haha! but time are too short! But lucky time are short. If nt, we will spent like mad! cos we buy & buy! Haiz!

Overall, I really love my days to be so relax and peaceful like today! Hope every weekend can be like tat. REALLY!!! Thanks Qing Qing for the noisy but fun days wor! hee... NITE!!!

2007-07-10T12:56:00.000+08:00

My life goes up & dwn everyday. Today, I feel so relax. To be honest, i know why i feel so stress. & i cant avoid from it. hwever, i also cant post here. cos i know the circumstance if i post it! how??!! Qing! i still gt alot to tell u leh! hehe..

2007-07-08T17:37:00.000+08:00

Days are getting lesser and lesser for me...! I feel of collapse any moment..! Things surround are driving me crazy anytime! my life is getting miserable every minutes! please! i dun wanna survive in such a world! Please! let me off!!! I dun wanna tie up by so many things! Wat i nd is juz a peaceful life! tat's it! y cant i??? Y?

MC!!!

2007-07-05T09:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was on MC. Thinking of resting at home and relax.. but end up doing some crazy things...! cos i went back to sch... to do some project and i gt the chance to met those cute ex-classmates of TA27! haha... miss them.. hope tat we gt enough time to chat but too bad...! they are in rush to tutorial! haiz! sobsob... after that, i even went to orchard cos elaine wanna buy present! and having dinner at sakae sushi.. after that went to somewhere that i hav nt gone for a long period! at least 3 or 4 yrs! really bring back alot of memory!!! The happy moment and the best part of being together... wat a swt memories to recall! but too bad! days is gone and nv b back again but always in my mind!!! :)

life

2007-06-26T12:55:00.000+08:00

Suddenly feel like blogging. BUT... duno where shd i start frm.

WORK

Although it is tiring, hav to wake up early to work but hwever, colleague are nice. cos they treated me very well. for real audit kill alot of brain cells! head almost burst. but overall, i still like it la.

FAMILY

Suddenly feel that i having less time with them le. not like the past where we always meet up to grandpa hse every sunday & almost every sat will go out wif parents. now, duno whether within 3mths gt go once or nt and nw dun really feel like gg out with them le. duno y also. mayb everything in my life changes since my dad market has closed dwn. NO! is ever since my grandma admit to hospital...! everything changed! my beloved warming hm swt hm changed! changed into a cold shell for us to slp. the feeling is no longer remains.

RELATIVE

The most person i miss now is only jia jia! cant even rmb when i last saw her. ever since her operation, i hd nv saw her. none at all. miss her so much. after reading the newspaper, den i realised her condition & hw i wish tat i can do something for her. let her feel happy and warm. even just for a second.

and also i really 'chong bai' shawn. his spirit, his talent. he really made me so touch. he is really a gd boy! 'xiao shun', 'kai lan'. How i wish he cd get into the contest. anyway, he is already and always a superstar in my heart le! shawn! jia you wor! always support u! duno whether there's 'fang shen' competition not. if there's, shawn! u will sure win the contest de! we are always here to support u!

I really love their spirit. They are really brave! hw i wish i cd hav half of it! they are so young yet so 'dong shi'! :) so proud of them.

FRIENDS

As for frd, wat i can say is: i really miss TA27! and as for my 'dear' grp, i duno hw to express my words anymore. suddenly feel so weird with them. i duno y. mayb i nd them to destroy this weird feel! haha.. sometimes, i suddenly feel so lonely nowadays. and i duno who, where, hw shd i approach to. i dun really know why. Suddenly feel tat my frds are no longer as close as b4. really miss the days.

Last..., wanna end with a happy ending... BUT..., i dun seems to have any happy story to share with. and i hope the nxt blog will be a happy starts up and with happy ending. cya! and miss everyone up there who is always there for me!

P.S: i really nd relax!!! i wan to go crazy one more time! i wanna shout! i wanna cry! i wanna scream! let me hav a place to go crazy again please!!!

The truth

2007-06-12T09:12:00.000+08:00

I gt a chance to let me used different angle to observe ppl surround me. Some are really helpful while some are juz talking ****!!! Some cant involve in help but they are still thoughful and some having non-response at all. Some are really true frd who alwaysb there whenever u nd them & some are just a passerby but u still treat them as treasure. Who say tat closest frd will always b there by ur side? I dun think so lor! The truth of things happened cd prove my word the sentense to b wrong! extremely wrong wrong wrong!!! Juz a few hrs cd able me to indentified and made my mind cleared!!! Frm there i observed that true frd are usually hidden somewhere that u nv even notice them. & NOW! i wonder... Hw i lived for the past 21years of my life with the eye unopened!!! WAT THE F**KING BEST FRD! Where r all my idi*t best frd gone? where the H3ll r they when i nd them? Not even a reply nor a concent!!! I just cant imagine it!!! whether i had made a rite choice. I think i really wasted my life. Really disappointed! however, there's still true colours in the air where colours up the life in the world. There still alot of my beloved frdz be there. Feeling so touched and so warm. U guys are really helpful and kind. A thousand and million thanks to u guys. U guys fill up the portion of colours into my black and white world which let me feel tat there's at least some colours in my life. and this colours really made me feel better. but i was still sad! really! terrible sad!!!

Actually, i shd tks jia jia. She gives me the opportunity to discover my surrounding and make me realise wat shd nt belongs to me. i am glad tat my discover wasnt tat late.

Those id*t up there! i dun need any explanation. Ur heart wasnt connected to ur mind, ur brain. i made myself clear enough le. & a human being gt only 1life to live and u guys already gt 1 chance but the chance is gone! no making up of chances in my dictionary de. I am cruel enough to accept this world nw! although i dun wish to be! but i hav no choice!

Well, Packing up my emotion now! wanna stop on those id*t le! they are nt worth to let me talk so much ba? To be honest. I really missed jia jia alot. Really had been a long time nv see her. duno hw is she. Jia jia, u must b strong ok? u all are jie jie bao bei. My little xiao bao bei! B strong, b healthy, b brave & cute always ok? give u all my support and love. miss u always...

my 1st sat.

2007-06-11T13:38:00.000+08:00

This is the 1st sat where i nv go out. i mean nv go out with frd. cant believe ba? haha... I stay at hm, feeling so lazy to go anywhere. waiting for my parents' to buy me dinner. They know me best! haha! cos i dun like to eat rice and they nv bought any rice back cos of me. ;p but was been trick by my mum later on. asking me to go 'poh' hse to help up and she will buy me a french fries. End up, she lie to me! she nv bought me my french fries! but lucky my cousin bought me 2 pkts of fries. haha. if nt, i will start to nag at my mum for the whole day.

Having nt enough slp even since last week, but still enjoy. cos i met my poly frdz! long time no see. really quite alot to talk! those fellow, tony and joey was enjoying with their debate lor. while i, serene, shengbao and celest talk abt other topic! preparing for a sentosa outing nxt time. cant wait for it le! haha..

And also yday went to my cousin wedding. wanna congrat him! :) suddenly thinking, most my cousin has already build up their hm swt hm. nxt time, it's hard to ask them out le. sobsob. time flies really fast. cant imagine. Now for cousins, it's left not much of us unmarried! haiz.. My fun with them will get lesser and lesser or even none le! sobsob.. But anyway, they are really fortunate that they had really found their mr and miss rite! feel so happy for them. :)

Feeling warm

2007-06-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

Suddenly feel so warm in the air.. Knowing that i am not alone in this world. Nv tot tat so many frdz so concern abt me. Really so nice. Especially wendy.. nv tot tat she wd read my blog! haha.. Thanks so much to all the frdz wor!

Anyway, blogging to ask u guys to support campus superstar.. The cute little boy boy 'SHAWN'! Zhuo xuan zhen.. M5!!! vote for him wor!!! at 1900-112-7705 or sms M5 to 71199!!! Hee...

Yeah!!! Shawn rockz man!!! U are the BEST! Support u always! Jia you wor!!! & dun over tiredor stress yourself! :)

Hope u able to win in the contest! Loadz of love from us!!!

My greatest fear

2007-06-02T23:22:00.000+08:00

My greatest fear is been alone! I scare to be alone! Alone for me is v terrible. I rather kill myself when i was alone. & today, they left me alone.. I was feeling so low, so sad, so uneasy when i was alone. I was angry & tired. I divert all my calls to my sister. But i duno y!!! I went to the beach for a walk alone.. TOTALLY ALONE! & this is the 1st time i am alone. Feel so bad.

Off my hp, Been lonely at the beach. Keep thinking & thinking. Think of some nonsense. No1 able to reach me. Feel so lonely but quiet and comfortable. At that point, i suddenly feel tat been alone doesn't really bad. Mayb its cos i hav been accompanied all the time. nw, i accepted been alone le. and maybe that will be my life in the future. no1 wd noes hw my life will be in future ba! suddenly think tat i was really grown up. Facing of things in the reality nw. My greatest fear has overcome. & i think i hav nothing to be afraid of le. :)

After thinking so much, i finally on my hp. BUT w/o cancel the divert. Replying the sms received. but my sms make lawrence to worry for me. haha.. i duno y also b'coz he ask me whether wanna watch 'pirate' movie & i wanted but i dun wish to meet them. & after that, i guess he think too much & called me. This is my 1st time been alone & wanted to be alone. he was so worried, keep asking where am i. wanted to come & fetch me & even decide to hunt for me when i dun tell him my location. Haiz.. This silly cute 'nan you'! I nv tot tat he worries more than my family does. feeling so touch of having such a kind of frdz. Feel so sorry to make him worry & thk for his concern.

Increment

2007-05-30T22:18:00.000+08:00

Feeling happy today because of $200 increment. haha.. although it is still very less but i am already happy. Imagine... Now i can survive with $600 per month... with transports, foods, sch fees, insurance, etc. Sometimes, nd to give dad. Just cant imagine hw i am able to do it. Although its stress but everything nds to go on. Life is still living.

Attachment is quite fun for me cos i got very nice, helpful, kind and friendly colleague. Although i duno them well and they duno my situation but i feel comfortable with them. They are so nice to me and feel so touch. Really miss them alot if i leave. Just imagine christina is leaving. My best buddy in the attachment. Wd she miss the others colleagues too? I bet tat i will miss her lotz!

Attachment is fun, report is suck! y is there a nd to submit report for attachment? making us so stress. Money problem already tie up my family. Now...! report! y is there always a nonstop item to worry abt? sometimes, i really feel like having a special way to destress myself. BUT HOW? I already try to be more happy gg le! but sometimes, really! i can't take it. I wish someone will be there to share with me. Bring me to somewhere to destress. Haiz!

I miss the days where i go super crazy! wild crazy! m i able to find back the days again?

Clubbing with pri sch gals!

2007-05-29T21:11:00.000+08:00

Clubbing with my pri sch friends!!!

A lucky day to meet a handsome guy (zhang yao dong) when we go clubbing at MOS!

This should be the first time i go clubbing with my pri sch friends. After been so long nv go clubbing, suddenly feel weird. duno its cos i go with different grp of ppl or its really long nv clubbing. Anyway, that day really happen alot of things and once again, i really felt sorry to the guys! really so sorry!!!

long time no update

2007-05-20T21:11:00.000+08:00

It's had been a super long period nv update.

Things happen so much. But afterall, i did enjoyed.

After lossing weight, i gained alot of weight!!!! SIANZZZZZZZZZ!!!! Bt, nvm, i dun care le. hehe..

Attachment, had made me feel tired! stress! Brain cell almost dead! Brain twisted and twist just to think for an adjustment entry! Haiz.. Christina gg to quit soon. Miss her!

It's gg to the end of May! Report need to submit in June but i hav nt started at all! No lappy! lazy to do! Lappy is with sista Ian poh now! Haiz!

For me, attachment is fun but report is a terrible stuffs in it! I love my colleague they all. They are nice, friendly. ONLY REPORT!!!!

Other then attachment, I went out after almost every working hours and every weekend till the nxt day morning. Watched almost all the movie in cathay cineleisure! haha... althought its tired, but i love the fun. I love been in the group now! The group has become bigger and bigger.

This group created because of me (During my birthday!). It's combine with my 'dear' (Pri & Sec Sch mates), their frdz, my ITE gals frdz (my best sisters), My cousins and his friends. It's a big grp now! & i had been their main host in the grp. Because i had a special relationship with almost 'all' the guys in the grp! There's alot of 'fei wen' between me & them. Now, i shd feel that i was the most fortunate women in the grp le ba? lol! because i got 'fei wen qing ren', 'fei wen nan you', 'fei wen lau gong' and after that, i duno still got wat le. Haha! They really treat me very nice. They dotes me as much as my parents did. Really love them alot but I scare that i will 'yi lai' them too much. How???

ANYWAY, THANKS DEAR... Thanks all the 'fei wen' party! Thanks to my dear cousin & his friend too! They are really a nice man... Always been there for me when i needs help. U guys are really really nice man!!! So..., if any of the gals up there wanna know them can let me know wor! because they are still unattached!!!! HAHA!!!

Really a hundred, a thousand, a million or even a zillion thanks to u all! LOVE U GUYS ALOT ALOT!!!

Makeover photo

2007-04-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Makeover Photo is OUT!!!

That's all i have... Hehe... Happy Viewing...

Picture on 10 Mar 07 at Font Canning hotel

2007-03-25T17:22:00.000+08:00

After chating for long...

went to the nearest hotel to take a rest...

Picture below are in the toliet of the hotel...

(dun believe ba? haha...)

& our craziness dun stop here... Story continue... More posting next week if possible...

Picture on 10 Mar 07 at Font Canning Park

2007-03-25T16:47:00.000+08:00

After Shaw hse...

Proceed to Fort Canning...

Picture on 10 Mar 07 at shaw hse

2007-03-25T16:21:00.000+08:00

Picture taken on 10 Mar 2007

(After Makeover)

At the Shaw House

Me!!!

With Elaine...
With Peiyin...

With Wendy...

Movie weekend!

2007-03-18T13:05:00.000+08:00

Over the Weekend!!!

'Blood and the Chocolate' on fri midnight with my sister, elaine, seng, lawrence and jimmy. Went home at around 6am on sat but wake up by my cousin in the early morning 10am. So tired. but we continue our slp till abt 2pm den wake up. Haha. Take any bus that came for our dinner. End up having dinner at Macperson!!! LOL! Den later on, we try to take any bus to interchange. End up at CCK Lot1.

Picture taken when we reach CCK Lot1!

After my trip to CCK Lot1, Proceed on to our 3rd home... CineLeisure...

'The Haunted Sch' on sat midnight with the same grp of gang except my sister. And went home at 6.30am in the morning... Haiz... It's super tired and sleepy now. But i love the weekend. I love this kind of stupid, crazy, messy, tiredness life. It really made me 4get alot of stuffs. Brain stop working at the point of tiredness.

Our chocolate cream for the waiting time at cine for our movie.

1 Chocolate cream a day. Haha. Thks wor! It's really delicious wor! hehe...

And so... My life will continue...

With same expected circumce next week. Cos 'Mr Bean Holidays' will be out on 22 March 2007!!!

Result

2007-03-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning, received a SMS... Feel abit happy while abit sad... After that, when reach home, received letter from Ngee Ann Poly... & it was the same things as i received in the morning. The Examination Result Slip...

RESULT IS OUT!!!

Although my result wasn't as good as wat i hav done in the past, in the ITE and in the Sec Sch, but i think, i satisfied in my result. Because... I passed all the module BUT... Wasn't in the grade that i expected. No 'As' at all... and even worst.. Just tat there is no fail... Haiz... It's really badly done. But nvm, i will work harder for the last sems... and i hope this time round i really can make it!

I need encouragement!!! Please do help me with it! okie?

Photo taken at hm after makeover

2007-03-11T03:05:00.000+08:00

My 'Zi Lian' Photo taken when i reach home after makeover!

Past 2 weeks...

2007-03-11T02:44:00.000+08:00

Other than attachments, there's alot of things happen... Especially Elaine birthday... I think it wd be a forgetable day for elaine...

Oh ya... During the wendy and Elaine birthday, i taken alot of photo. but hav not received it. Will post after i received.

Other than their birthday, i find that my weekend is also fully occupied by them again... Sleepless day almost every weekend! haiz... Its fun, it's enjoyable but need to sacrified my sleep la... haha... but afterall, i really enjoyed! :)

Yesterday, went to makeover again. Taken alot of photo again. Post it when free! hehe...

Haiz! My blog will explore with photo after that... So enjoy viewing... But it will be very ugly la! cos too 'zi lian' le! haha...

Picture taken after our 'I'm a Cyborg But That's Ok!' in the hospiatal while visiting baby jia jia...

2007-03-11T02:07:00.000+08:00

Picture taken after our 'I'm a Cyborg But That's Ok!' in the hospiatal while visiting baby jia jia...

We are here to visit our Cutie Jia Jia! So Jia Jia must Get well soon! okie?

Start to get some photo in the hospital! Haha!!! Always Me and Min wanna take photo! The rest? Haiz...

Inside the ICU Room still wanna take photo? Really crazy!!!

That's not enough!!! Having more photo!!! Taken in the 1st nurse cabinet before the 2nd cabinet to see Jia Jia...

Start to get sleepy! cos it's midnight 12am plus!!! Sleeping at the nurse table le!

Before we left hospital, Let's take a last snap! Yeah!!!

Holiday over! Attachment is here!

2007-02-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

I had made full used of my holiday!!!

Go out everyday!!!

Movie, Shop, Visit relative in the new year, Play and Fun!!! Haha...

But i am tired now! Not enough sleep! been playing and playing.

Attachment for 3days le. Audit... Busy and headache stuffs... But still able to manage la.

Cos work as audit b4 wat. hehe...

Hmm... post some pic tat hav taken in naughty ah min hse!!! when i start to get bored! ;p