My greatest fear is been alone! I scare to be alone! Alone for me is v terrible. I rather kill myself when i was alone. & today, they left me alone.. I was feeling so low, so sad, so uneasy when i was alone. I was angry & tired. I divert all my calls to my sister. But i duno y!!! I went to the beach for a walk alone.. TOTALLY ALONE! & this is the 1st time i am alone. Feel so bad.

Off my hp, Been lonely at the beach. Keep thinking & thinking. Think of some nonsense. No1 able to reach me. Feel so lonely but quiet and comfortable. At that point, i suddenly feel tat been alone doesn't really bad. Mayb its cos i hav been accompanied all the time. nw, i accepted been alone le. and maybe that will be my life in the future. no1 wd noes hw my life will be in future ba! suddenly think tat i was really grown up. Facing of things in the reality nw. My greatest fear has overcome. & i think i hav nothing to be afraid of le. :)

After thinking so much, i finally on my hp. BUT w/o cancel the divert. Replying the sms received. but my sms make lawrence to worry for me. haha.. i duno y also b'coz he ask me whether wanna watch 'pirate' movie & i wanted but i dun wish to meet them. & after that, i guess he think too much & called me. This is my 1st time been alone & wanted to be alone. he was so worried, keep asking where am i. wanted to come & fetch me & even decide to hunt for me when i dun tell him my location. Haiz.. This silly cute 'nan you'! I nv tot tat he worries more than my family does. feeling so touch of having such a kind of frdz. Feel so sorry to make him worry & thk for his concern.
Fate ended @ 11:22 PM
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