Saturday, July 21, 2007
Meeting my teammates in sch to do the multimedia project. Wake up late and reach late. After the meeting, suppose to meet suyin but cant reach her. Such a waste of time waiting for her. haha.. but nvm la. nt her fault also. its hp fault! haha. Suddenly received my best sister sms. Thinking of taking a trip to her hse push her to study & frm her hse, i watched the show 'huan huan ai' (exchange of love) in another word 'why why love'. Feeling some lines very suit me and also the problem is almost same for me... and there's a line i love best!
'The most that i don't need in my life is 'DREAM', the most things tat i nt interested is 'LOVE'. Because i dun1 myself to get disappointed.. AND Because if there is no dream, there will be no disappointment.'Actually, i really afraid of dispointment. therefore, i dun dare to aim tat high anymore. and also i dun dare to love b'cos i afraid of loss.
OK! i think i dun talk abt the show anymore b'cos i think i hav really alot to mention today ba.
hmm.. and its time to share out le. B'cos i know alot of them is really concern for it. i dun speak out but blog abt it ba. i dun1 to repeat everything again and again. i dun wanna cries anymore. so after this entries, PLEASE STOP ASKING ME WAT HAD HAPPEN TO ME AGAIN. ok? thanks..
B'cos wat happen in elaine hse really bring me back alot of memories. keep thinking if everything nt change, i will be as happy as wat it is ba.
In the past, every member of the family will went to my grandma hse for a gather. for chat, happy argument, play and fun. nw, nt even once in few months to grandpa hse. not much gathering anymore. In the past, beach, park, farm, shopping mall, etc is where we always went together. nw, avoid to go out together. b'cos wanna avoid another quarrel. In the past, there's little quarrelment surround or even none. nw, quarrel for finance, quarrel for other every small things. In the past, we love to go straight home rite after sch. nw, avoid to go home. In the past, we love wkends alot because dad will bring us out to somewhere for exploding. nw, avoid to go out in case of borrowing $ frm us again. In the past, there's so many things we love. nw, other den avoid, still avoid... hw we wish everything unchange. but now...!? everything changed! i really dun like this kind of life.
Juz now, having experience in elaine family, let me feel warm and 'xian mu'. hw i wish granny is still around. hw i wish my family is ever so happening. but everything really change.
Having of so many problem now! me & my sister is facing a big problem. and this problem cdnt be solve. Hw we wish to find a place to hide and cry.
We really duno y. really!!!!
Fate ended
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